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100 random questions

2011-06-06T21:57:00.003+08:00

1. How old will you be in five years?
-28. OMG

2. Who did you spend at least two hours with today?
- My sister

3. How tall are you?
- Around 165cm

4. What do you look forward to most in the next six weeks?
- Harry Potter final movie

5. What’s the last movie you saw?
- Pirates of the Caribbean: The strangers Tide

6. Who was the last person you called?
- My mum

7. Who was the last person to text you?
- Farah

8. What was the last text message you received?
- just something about hook

9. Who was the last person to leave you a voicemail?
- forgotten. it was a very long time ago

10. Do you prefer to call or text?
- text

11. What were you doing at 12am last night?
- Surfing net

12. Are your parents married/separated/divorced?
- Married

13. When is the last time you saw your mom?
- like 2 hours ago

14. What color are your eyes?
- Dark brown

15. What time did you wake up today?
- 6am somthing

16. What are you wearing right now?
- A black blouse

17. What is your favorite Christmas song?
- I dunno, not clelebrating

18. Where is your favorite place to be?
- Any place for a great vacation

19. Where is your least favorite place to be?
- anywhere dirty and crowded

20. Where would you go if you could go anywhere?
- europe or Japan

21. Where do you think you’ll be in 10 years?
- in an office

22. Do you tan or burn?
- I guess tan?

23. What did you fear was going to get you at night as a child?
- nightmares

24. What was the last thing that really made you laugh?
- reading a blog post

25. How many TVs do you have in your house?
- 2

26. How big is your bed?
- Queen size.

28. Do you sleep with or without clothes on?
- with clothes on

29. What color are your sheets?
- peach, red, pink

30. How many pillows do you sleep with?
- 2

31. What is your favorite season?
- I wish I could have winter

32. What do you like about fall?
- Leaves

33. What do you like about winter?
- Snow

34. What do you like about the summer?
- It always summer here in my country.

35. What do you like about spring?
- it would be flowers I guess

36. How many states/provinces have you lived in?
- 2 or 3

37. What cities/towns have you lived in?
- Seri Kembangan

38. Do you prefer shoes, socks, or bare feet?
- sandal.

39. Are you a social person?
- not really

40. What was the last thing you ate?
- Sushi

41. What is your favorite restaurant?
- western's

42. What is your favorite ice cream?
- Vanilla, chocolate, strawberry, durian and many more

43. What is your favorite dessert?
- Ice cream

44. What is your favorite kind of soup?
- cream soup, be it mushroom or chicken.

45. What kind of jelly do you like on your PB & J sandwich?
- Never eat that before

46. Do you like Chinese food?
- Yes

47. Do you like coffee?
- Yes

48. How many glasses of water, a day, do you drink on average?
- depends on what food I ate for the day.

49. What do you drink in the morning?
- Plain water

50. What non-banking related card in your wallet is the most valuable to you?
- My student's card

51. Do you sleep on a certain side of the bed?
- quite random

52. Do you know how to play poker?
- Yes

53. Do you like to cuddle?
- Yes

54. Have you ever been to Canada?
- No

55. Do you have an addictive personality?
- Not sure

56. Do you eat out or at home more often?
- Home

57. What do you miss about Pre-School, if anything?
- having nothing to worry about

58. Do you know anyone with the same birthday as you?
- Yes

59. Do you want kids?
- After marriage, yes.

60. Do you speak any other languages?
- Yes

61. Have you ever gotten stitches?
- No

62. Have you ever ridden in an ambulance?
- No

63. Do you prefer an ocean or a pool?
- Ocean

64. Do you prefer a window seat or an aisle seat?
- Window

65. Do you know how to dance?
- No

66. What is your favorite thing to spend money on?
- Make up

67. Do you wear American Eagle Shirts? (or another brand)
- No

68. What is your favorite TV show?
- Movies, cooking show, drama, talk show, reality show

69. Can you roll your tongue?
- No

70. Who is the funniest person you know?
- I dunno, Mr Bean? haha

71. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?
- Yes

72. What is the main ring tone on your phone?
- Anchor by Mindy Gledhil

73. Do you still have clothes from when you were little?
- No

74. What red object is closest to you right now?
- A box

75. Do you turn off the water while you brush your teeth?
- Yes

76. Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed?
- Random

77. Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of bees?
- Big teddy bears, yes

78. Do you flirt a lot?
- No.

79. What do you dip a chicken nugget in?
- Mayo and ketchup

80. What is your favorite food?
- too many to write

81. Can you change a lightbulb?
- I think so

82. Have you ever gotten Grounded?
- No

83. Have you ever ran out of money?
- Yes

84. What is your usual bedtime?
- 2 or 3 am

85. What was the last book you read?
- Ranma 1/2 comic, is that can be considered as a book?

86. Do you read the newspaper?
- Sometimes

87. Do you have any magazine subscriptions?
- No

89. Do you watch Disney? (Or another Channel)
- Yes

90. Do you dance in public?
- No

91. What radio station did you last listen to?
- Light FM

92. Who is in the picture frame closest to you?
- None

93. What was the last note you scribbled on a piece of paper?
- I cant remember

94. What is your favorite candle scent?
- Anything that smell nice

95. What is your favorite board game?
- Othello

97. When was the last time you attended church?
- Never in my life

98. Who was your favorite teacher in Previous years?
- none

99. What is the longest you have ever camped out in a tent?
- 2 nights

100. Who was the last person to do something extra special for you?
- I cant remember.

why?

2011-06-05T08:24:00.003+08:00

Why am I still waiting? Why you still dilly-dallying? Do you know the more I wait, the more it hurts me? Or did you do it on purpose? Is it something so hard to do? I feel like you hiding something. Hiding something means cheating for me. How could you do this to me? I had nightmares two nights in a row. And all the nightmares were about you. I feel miserable when I'm awake, and when I'm sleeping. All because I keep thinking of your action. I wonder what's behind it. Why are those people can get something that I cannot get from you? They must be special right? While me, still waiting like no tomorrow just for your approval. It hurts me. Why you like to hurt me? Why you like to see me sad? Are you just playing with me? I'm not a ball that you can just kick on whenever you like. I'm scared if it will lead to the end of us, just because of this matter. But like I said, it is not a small matter. It shows your sincerity towards me. Hiding something is never for a good reasons. Unapproval is only because of bad things. Am I your bad things? I can accept that I am your secret lover. But when things go on till this stage, I just cannot accept some of your action anymore. I don't think I deserve to be treated like this... It pains, it hurts, it miserable, it breaks me inside. I always put you among your top, but you never did for me.

Someone please save me. I don't know until when I can go on... It hurts..hurts... the pain..it hurts.....................

Ranting

2011-06-04T21:21:00.002+08:00

You might think all this is just a small matter. Well, it just a damn facebook. But do you know all this showing how your sincerity towards me?? Did you know that??? Do you know how I feel? I feel like I'm just an outsider. I feel like I am an intruder. I feel like I am a disturber. I feel like I am nobody. I feel like I am nothing to you!! I am no one!!

Do you know how disappointed I am? It breaks me inside. I dont know what should I think about you. Girl's heart is like a tissue paper. Once you shit in it, it will never be the same. It will never gets clean. It will stained forever, stink. Or maybe torn apart, perished.

Until I see it, I don't feel like talking. Signing in to my main msn account make me sick. Staying online in my facebook make me sad.

To u

2011-06-01T00:00:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday to u. I sent u a gift. Im glad that u like it. I wish all ur dreams come true, even tho if Im not included in any of your dream. :)

Happy Birthday love.

Selling: Victoria Secret - Secret Moments Body Mist

2011-05-19T10:46:00.002+08:00

Hi all, Im selling off these 2 fragrance mist from Victoria Secret. Both are new.

IM SELLING FOR ONLY RM50 FOR ROOM 504 AND RM45 FOR WILD AT HEART, INCLUDING POS LAJU

IT COST USD12 per bottle in US but that HAVENT INCLUDE US SHIPPING AND SHIPPING TO MALAYSIA, so the price might be more expensive if you bought individually straight from US, and if you buy from US, u need to buy more than 1 bottle to get cheaper price, but after add the postage for heavy weight, the price is almost the same. Why need more when you only need 1 bottle right?

My price is already include pos laju so its very cheap already. Most people sell this ready stock for RM55-RM65 and that havent include postage!!

And also Im selling Wild at heart cheaper because the bottle cap cant be closed tight. But if you have other unused body mist botthe, you can always replace the cap, and it will be as good. So people who interested in this one please take note. However, I will seal the cap properly to avoid leakage while posting, anyway it is a spray type so it wont leak easily.

Anyone who interested to purchase, you can send email to iyreen87[at]yahoo[dot]com, or inbox my facebook. You can see my facebook link at the side bar --->>>>

Item(s): Secret Moments Room 504 Body Mist (Sultry Amber and Passionfruit) 250ml
-if u love guy perfume scent, then this is for you, bcos it has a lil bit of masculine scent -

Price: RM50

Dealing method: Postage

Age of item: New

tem(s): Secret Moments Wild at Heart Body Mist ( Sensual Vanila and Musk) 250ml
-if u love vanilla musky scent, then this is for you-
Price: RM45

Dealing method: Postage

Age of item: New

note: I put a plaster there so the cap will close tight and wont come off. Dont worry it is not broken at all, just the cap a bit loose for Wild at Heart.
Reason for sale: Extra

Review: Rohto Lychee Eye Drops for Contact Lens and Rohto Z!

2011-05-19T02:16:00.003+08:00

This is going to be a delayed review as I already using it for a year. >_<

Rohto is one of famous brand from Japan. Among their popular product is their eyedrops with a wide range of type for various use and Rohto Lychee Eye Drops and Rohto Zi are among their popular hot selling product.

I bought these two eyedrops from ebay merchant that selling products from Japan as these cant be found in Malaysia. Even some of the product can be found here in Malaysia or outside Japan, but they tends to repackaged to another container which is hmm... less cuter than what they have in Japan. I know this might sound lame, but one of the main reason why I bought these is because their super kawaii packaging. Ahh..I just love anything that looks cute. <3

This Rohto Lychee is packaged in a beautiful glittery diamond shaped pink packaging. The one that I bought comes with a love-shaped case which is for storing the diamond shaped eyedrops.

So did I like this product, other than the packaging? Yes!! I always put 2-3 drops of this when I feel my contact lens starting to dry on my eyes. Once I use it, I can feel it wet my dry eyes instantly and I can continue to wear my contact lens comfortably for another next few hours.

Next is Rohto Zi. The reason why I bought this, aside from its packaging is because I was attracted to the fact that my eyes will feel like "icy" cool once I drop in onto my eyes. When I was using this for the first time, I admit that I feel a little bit scared about the cool stingy effect that Im going to feel. Yes it stings at first, as if you put something very cool in your eyes. My eyes straight become watery due to the sting, but once the sting feelig gone, my eyes feel slightly cool, fresh and rejuvenated!

Overall Im happy with these eyedrops. I might repurchase once my stock runs out.

him

2011-05-11T03:24:00.002+08:00

Yesterday I finally met him. He was outside the entrance of my apartment, waiting for me in his car. He only stop by for awhile tho, since he said he would come again on some other day. I was a little bit excited, and at the same time, scared too. Maybe if we meet like 1 year ago, I may feel a rather more excited than scared? But whatever, now I finally met him, the guy that I always wanted to meet for such a long time already.

We said to each other, that both of us look different from what we saw in webcam, or picture. Different, as in we look better in virtual life. Honestly, I was rather disappointed when you said that, and I bet you also a little bit disappointed when I said the same thing to you? Im sorry if it make you unpleased. But as for you to know, I never care how you looks like from the beginning. The things that important to me is the way you treat me. Infact, you look fine. Maybe you didnt looks like a charming prince, but you still a fine guy. The one who has problem is me, Im a fat woman.

After that you held my hand. It was an awkward moment for me, and I was a little bit reluctant. First of all, I never hold hands with any guy in the world, other than my family, so it was my first time. Secondly, maybe because I waited too long, I feel a little bit unsure and unsecured on the things that going on, and I also was wondering, why after sooo long now only you came and see me. Time can change many things you know.

You asked me, if I am happy? Yes, Im happy that finally I could see you. But I really hope that you could do this earlier.

We chat a little bit before I went back to my apartment. He said he will meet me again for a movie, but I dont know why I got a felling that we will never meet anymore? Am I to paranoid?

I wonder if he can accept me as what I am? If I love a person, I would accept the person with all my heart regardless all the flaws that he may have. And I want the person to accept all the flaws that I have.

But if he cant accept me after he saw me in real life, I guess there is nothing I can do. Whats the point of loving a person who cant accept you the way you are? It's pointless right?

Again, only time will tell..

window shopping: Aishop.com

2011-04-02T19:22:00.003+08:00

I've been browsing this website, and I found that they have lots sellection of interesting stuff. Anyway, I come with a long list of wishlist item after I browsed the entire site.

So, here it is:

Mircoz Woman's Day Eyelash set RM199

Zeniswell real touch bb cream RM98

Mircoz Magicurler RM37.80

Mircoz Nail Buffer RM11.80

Mircoz Ozone & Ionic Facial Steamer (Pre-order) RM290

Flowery Fan Light Stand - Yellow RM25.80

Queen in Love - Stylish Pendrive Casing RM17

King in Love - Stylish Pendrive Casing RM17

Car Sunshade Tissue Holder - LV Monogram (Big Print) RM16.80

Happy Club Cotton Card Holder (Random Distribute) rm9.80

Trendy Tissue Holder - LV Monogram RM22.80

Super Big Adorable Pencil Case - Pink RM14.80

2G Pendrive Chip RM25

Flowery Words Makeup Box RM23.80

Stylish Must Have Pants Clip RM4.80

I know it is impossible for me to grab all of stuff, but I hope I can get some after I got some money incase I manage to get job during holiday >.< Im confirm getting the top 4 item in the list :P

Single in disguise or?

2011-03-31T20:41:00.004+08:00

Everytime when people ask me, whether am I taken? or do I have a bf? or am I single? I honestly cant find the right answer. The answer is always uncertain. This is because me myself, dunno the real answer!

Im literally have someone, but the truth is sometimes I feel that I'm actually single instead of taken. Here's the reasons why. Ok never mind, I shall not disclosed the reasons here for public to read. But I do hope all this uncertainty will meet it's end soon. Only time will tell. Honestly, Im getting tired. My patience seems endless but everything got it's limit.

Whatever it is, I will only love people who love me, because loving people who never loves me is a pointless thing to do. Period.

My broken heart

2011-02-15T01:26:00.004+08:00

The dress that I hanged over the window since this morning, I put it back in my closet after knowing the answer is no. My hair that I just air-dried, I leave it uncombed. My happy mood that I set since you said it, turns into zero with the silence from you. You broke my heart again, and this time it can only be stitched together with actions, but words no more. Actions speaks louder than words. Actions cures more than words, also it hurts more than words.

All my preparation, all my confidence that I build up over these years just for the sake of meeting you, seems like pointless. You are so close to me yet you are still so far, unreachable.

Maybe I dont need anything to meet you, because maybe the day we meet is when my body is already covered with white cloths? Unbreathable, unmoved? By that time, I can no longer smile and say "I love you". My hands can no longer move and warmly touching you? What will be left are just unfulfilled dreams and hopes. And my spirits will just looking at you, from afar, crying.

My heart has been broken so many times. It always took me awhile to mend it together again, but it still breaking apart in no time. Did you know how painful I am?

A black skirt

2011-02-12T03:02:00.003+08:00

I bought a long skirt today. And it can turn into a dress too. How I wish I could wear this for you to see because you always asking me if I will wear skirt. But then I think it not going to happen, you wont see me wearing this skirt, because we not going to meet.

Maybe all this will end soon. And it hurt me so much thinking about it. Sometimes we need to let go the thing that we love the most. It hurts.

Do you remember..?

2011-02-01T00:55:00.007+08:00

Dear my dear,

At this moment I miss u so much. At the same time I also feel a lil bit heartbroken.

Tonight I want to write a post about u.

Do you remember when was the first time we "met"? We met in an online game called Maple Story around 4 years ago. The place: Ludibirium. The event: Ludibirium Party Quest. We were in the same party. I kept dc-ing, I bet I made our party frustrated, but surprisingly u guys never kicked me out. I remember u said "If u dc again, I marry u" and that actually made me laughed because I found it funny and cute. After the party disbanded, we sat around and chatted. Before we log off, we add friend to each other. Since that day, we always chat and played together. Do you remember?

Do you remember not long after that, it was your 21st birthday. You asked me to sang u a birthday song, or maybe should I say type u a birthday song, which I did. I still keep the screenshot with me. Do you remember?

Do you remember when was the 1st time u showed me ur face thru webcam? U was wearing a green t-shirt. U have a pair of beautiful eyes, which I like. Do you remember?

Do you remember? You fought with my ex about a petty matter. He chased you all around while u was hunting for boxes. I defended you, when he was non-stop chasing and ks-ing u with his "godbro". And did you know because of that he was angry at me. Do you remember?

Do you remember, there is one night, we waited together at a map, hanging on rope together, for almost 30minutes just to wait for a Blue MM to spawn. It never spawned but somehow we were happy. Do u remember?

Do you remember, one day u told me ur account was banned, because u hacking. You said that you want to quit Maple. I was so sad, because I lost a good companion while I mapling, and I cried. What a crybaby I am huh? But we still chatting through msn, and since that I always pressing alt+tab button while mapling just to check if there is message from you. Not long after that, you decided to play back, but in different channel, following your siblings. So once in a while, I visited you in that channel, using a noob acc. But not so long after that, you quit maple for good. Do you remember?

Do you remember, we always chatted about everything. Somehow, I feel so comfortable chatting with you. We shared a lot of stories with each other. From something like what's the latest movie, to what product can be used to get rid of acne scars. Do u remember?

Do you remember, I broke up with my ex. You're the one who always accompany me chatting together. Even though u was only an online friend, I really treasured you more than my real life friend. I dont know what did you think of me back then, but I remembered you said that Im different, different from your other online friends. You said it is comfortable to talk to me. I was happy. Do you remember?

Do you remember, I was so nervous for my first job interview. You sent me a file, with lots of interview tips. The tips didnt suit the job I was applied for, but then I really appreciate it. I still keep all the tips that you gave me inside my pendrive. I will use it as one of my guide whenever Im having a job interview.

Do you remember, you always called me "piggy" back then. Of course I dont like people called me "pig" but I dont really mind whenever you called me that. "Hi piggy, miss u o", one of your words that I remember. Do you remember?

Do you remember, one day you showed me something, and I was shocked. Do you remember?

Do you remember, I was creating this blog. And at the same time, you also want to create your own blog, just for your nuffnang adv. I thought you on how to create blog especially about the templates. You was among the 1st person who visited my blog, and you left a message in my c-box. But after awhile, I stop updating my blog, and I bet, you also stop visiting my blog already. And even though you no longer use your adv blod, I still keep the link on my sidebar. Do you remember?

Do you remember, one day, you asked me something personal, about feelings. I didnt gave you a direct answer to your questions, because I was too shy back then. Do you remember?

Do you remember, there was one day, all of sudden u said to me "I love you". I was shocked and replied "U're kidding right?" U never replied back my questions. Do you remember?

Do you remember, I wrote on my status, " I love people who love me". You responded, u said "I love you 1st". I asked if you only love me a bit, and you said will love me more and more till the day u will love me more than I do. Since that day, we call each other dear. We become a couple, or a "couple". Do you remember? Ohya, the date was on 11/8/09.

Do you remember, we chat more and more, and finally, I decided to show you my webcam, instead of just picture. I was in reading room that time. Do you remember?

Do you remember, you said you want to meet me. I said i wasnt ready, and give you an excuse like Im busy for my exam. You asked me to bring my books while meeting you. But at the end, we didnt meet because you want me to finish my exam 1st. Do you remember?

Do you remember, you was so broke, until you need help from others, but nobody offered except me. You was reluctant to accept but at the end you did. I even helped you for your formal shirt for your job interview. I dont really mind because, helping someone that I love, makes me happier. Do you remember?

Do you remember, whenever you need a special companion from me, I will always trying my best to accompany you. I entertained you. I want you to feel happy whenever you're with me. Because for me whenever you're happy, Im happy. Do you remember?

Do you remember, I always complaining about your atitude whenever you are bad in mood. However I found out that Im getting immune to that attitude of yours. So that whenever you're in bad mood, I will always keep quiet, but somehow it did hurt me inside.

Do you remember, I posted your pants to your house. I slipped in a metal crystal boy keychain inside the pocket. You said u hang it on your house key. Im glad that you still have it. I hope you wont loose it no matter what happen. It came in pair. I still keep mine, infact I still havent use it, because I scared what if, if I loose it. So I keep it carefully inside my treasure box, where all my beloved items belong.

Do you remember, I said I want to make cookies for you. I really did. I tried 3 times to make sure I can bake nice cookies for you. And when finally I did, I kept some for you. But in the end we didnt meet for Valentines. I ate the cookies by myself, while crying.

Do you remember, it was your birthday. I edited a picture of a cake that I found on a blog. I wrote on the picture, "Happy Birthday Dear", and put it as my display picture. But you never mentioned anything about it, until I asked you if the picture was cute. I was sad back then, because it feels like you didnt care about the picture till I asked. But never mind, I still love you, so I dont mind. And did you know, I actually bought something for you. I remember back then, you wanted to buy a glass frame, but the price wasnt right for you. So you didnt buy it. Not long after that, I tried to buy the glass, for your birthday, and it out of stock. I search high and low for the exact glass, I even tried to look for it at Times Square, but I didnt manage to found it. So I bought a frame glass that look similar to Rayban brand. Im sorry, Im to poor to buy the real one, but I think it look nice. I was thinking to give it to you whenever we meet, but until today, we never meet. So I still keep the glass inside my treasure box, hoping one day you can wear it.

Do you remember, the day you was going to get your car. You happily told me that you going to have a car. I was so happy for you. I know you was very happy about your car. I really hope you can give me a ride, not because I want your car, but I just wanna have a feel sitting inside your beloved car.But then until now I never had the chance because we never met.

Do you remember, whenever I feel insecure, you always told me to do not think too much. Whenever you said that, I will feel a big relief and calmed down. All your words meant so much for me dear.

Do you remember, you always planed for meet up, but at the end, you canceled it with various reason. Everytime you canceled, I cried at least once. Imagine how many times I already cried for you.

Do you remember, whenever you need any assistance regarding your studies, I always tried my best to help you, even though Im suck at physic. But I feel happy everytime I helped you. I dont mind lack of sleep, as long as I can lend you my hands.

Do you remember, the 1st time you called me. I was stunned. You know Im a shy girl. I didnt talk most of the time, and my english will automatically turns horrible everytime Im nervous. I love your voice a lot. Its deep but not so deep, yet so manly. Everytime you called me, I felt so happy, and smiled before I sleep, even tho the topic conversation were kinda stupid.

Do you remember, my laptop broke down. While peoples were keep telling me it was the mobo problem, you was the only one who said it might the fan problem, and you was right even tho you never came to see the laptop. You always proud about your computer skills, and always say other people are noob, haha. But its ok, because I also proud of you dear.

Do you remember, on the earliest month of our relationship, we smsed a lot. Almost every night. I was in hostel, I cant online much, so you smsed me. There was one time I was having a bad fever, my body temperature went up tp 40C, which can be considered as dangerous. You said that you worried. I was glad that you concerned about me. So I replied your sms, even tho I was very sick, my body was burning. Dear, did you know I keep all the sms you sent me. Total of hundreds of them. But we never sms that frequent anymore, because of msn. But I actually love to receive more sms from you even tho we can communicate thru msn.

Do you remember, the way you treat me before was better than now. I thought you said you will love me more and more. Did you forget about it?

Do you remember, because of you I learn how to play poker. So that I can play together with you. I love it when you sit in the same table with me. I feel like you are sitting beside me in real life. Do you remember, we almost got banned because we transfered chips to each other by breaching the rule? Even tho I got the warning message and my acc might got banned, but I dont really feel angry at all because of you. There was one day, you not allowed me to follow you on same table because you said you keep loosing? I cried that time, because I feel like I caused you the bad luck. Do you remember that?

Do you remember. Sometimes I always ask you weird question, and you will answer whenever you feel like want to. Do you know sometimes I know that you're lying? Do you know I trust you with all my heart and it hurts me alot whenever I knew that you're lying?

Dear, I sincerely love you a lot. I know many people may think I am stupid because Im still holding on in this relationship. But I will love you as long as you love me. I'll only stop when there is no love from you to me.

Dear, today I realized on something. I scared that you will hurt me again. Can you prove to me that you sincerely love me and wont ever hurt me again?

I love you as my boyfriend, from the day that you said u love me on August 09. I love you as my friend from the day we met in maple 4 years ago. And I want to love you forever, now and afterlife.

This is my blogpost and I dedicate it to you my dear Mr _ _ _ _ _ _ /_ _ /_ _ _ _ /_ _ _ _. You know who you are.

From your girlfriend who you met 4 years ago, who you claimed to love 1 and half year ago,

Reen.

Another crossroad!

2010-12-05T20:17:00.002+08:00

I've been jobless for a few months since my contract with MDeC ended last August. I wanted to find a new job, I mean permanent steady job but something was stopping me from doing so, which is the urge to further my study.

So when my ex Uni opened their next intake for December, I give it a try to apply (for one last time). This time I never chosed any science courses. I learned my mistake from big failure of not finishing my BSc (Hons) Material Technology. It was among my biggest mistake in my life accepting that course back then. Damn it actually wasted 1 and half year of my precious life.

And finally the new intake result was revealed recently. Without much confident, I went to the website, key-ing in my IC number just to see if my application managed to get through. I already set in my mind, if I failed the application or if they offered me with lousy "lelong" course, I will just proceed with my job hunting, aiming for at least RM1.8K job for my diploma cert.

Unconfidently, I pressed enter just to see...my application managed to get through, and whats more? I got an offer to do BLS, aka Bachelor (Hons) of Legal Study aka Law! I was happy, because I didnt expect that I will get this course... But then, something stopping me again. It will took me at least 3 year prior completion and if I want to become a lawyer, I need to add another year to do my CLP, which add up for the total of 4 years to get the cert. And by that time, Im already 27!! Gosh, another 4 years of studying. And within the 4 years time, I m going to become a penniless student as I need to live with RM300 per month as pocket money. I cant shop like I used to when I had a job. Thinking about it make me feels like crying. I know maybe people see this as a small matter, but somehow it is not for me T.T

So this might happened if I took the course:

- Spent 3-4 years studying.

- Living with RM300 per month ohmygosh

- no money = less food and not much choice on transport (taking cab will make me broke in no

time) = more diet and walking to class = bigger possible to get slim? lol

- I graduate after 3 years, and got chance to hold a post in legal department, or graduate after 4

years and got chance to practice as lawyer.

- Can earn a lot, i mean really a lot as I progress my career in law institution.

- However all that only can happen after the age of 27.

And this might happened if I reject the offer:

- Proceed finding job

- Living with salary at least RM1.8K per month.

- I can shop, buy this and that, groom myself. Enjoy my young life.

- However, maybe I cant push my career to much higher as I dont have a degreee.

- There is a possibility that I might stuck at my position without much promotion?

- I can take part time study ( it going to be very tedious) or e-pjj course (less tedious but more

time consuming. But I guess by the time I got the degree certificate, Im already 30.

- There is no way I can take law part time (because its hard) and that course isnt offered for e-

pjj, so maybe I'll just end up with Degree in Admin or in Business Study which means, my

income eventually will not become as high as when I took the law course (unless I venture

myself into business world of course)

So in conclusion, taking the course is good for long term. I can become somebody, I can get lots of money, but I need to sacrifice my young age. I need to say goodbye to my shopping wishlist. I need to say goodbye to expensive skin regime. I need to say goodbye for anything related to money within the 4 years time.

If I dint take the course, its good for a short term period, but I might having some problem once I got more life commitment. Means I can enjoy my young life but after that, it wont be so sure anymore, unless if Im lucky like some people out there who can make money, without high education certificate.

How I wish if money doesnt really matter. If I can have more than RM300 as monthly pocket money, maybe I wont think so much about being utterly broke while studying. My bf told me that he can support me once he graduate next year ( I was shocked and happy when he told me this >.<), or maybe I can do some small business or small part time job to add my pocket money. But all that are still uncertain. For now what already confirm is the RM300 pocket money..lol

So this is my crossroad. Further my study, or proceed as working adult. I really cant decide yet. Oh God please help me decide. I dont want to make another mistake that can make me regret for the rest of my life..

My way to remove "Ori" sticker.

2010-11-11T00:45:00.005+08:00

I bet quite a number of people out there dont mind about the "Ori" sticker that has been sticked on most Cd sold in Malaysia. Well, since its indicate that the cd are "original". However, I do mind. You know why? Because they just freaking love sticking it at the front part of booklet, or any other strategic part instead on the plastic shrink wrap. And if you are lucky enough, they can just paste their ugly LPF sticker at the face of your beloved singer.

As a cd collector, the packaging is very important for me. Sometimes, I can buy a cd just because I adore the packaging more than the content. Most of the Cd that I collect are from Japan. I really adore how Japanese packed their stuff as they will always try to preserve the collectible value of the item. Most of the time, stickers are only being pasted on the plastic wrap instead of booklet, or the worst, on cd case.

Enough of that, now Im gonna show you how I remove the ori sticker from the cd booklet/box. I bet many people got their own way, but this is my way on how to do it. If there is any better way, feel free to let me know.

First, just peel it off, slowly and carefully.

You will see some remaining of the sticker.

To remove these sticker stain, just pour 2-3 drops of oil (Im using my olive oil make up remover that I use to clean my make up brush) onto a cotton pad, or a clean tissue.

After that just rub the stain off, and you can see the sticker residue being removed effortlessly.

Clean the oil residue, and voila. Now your cd is free from Ori sticker.

You can also use this way to clean any other sticker smudge on your stuff.

However, I got a bit of problem to remove the LPF sticker as it cant be peeled off easily.

You need to peel it bit by bit before remove the sticker stain using the oil.

Thats all on how I remove sticker/sticker stain on my cd collection. Hope it helps for other cd collectors out there. :D

Review: Mandom Cleansing Express, Cleansing Gel

2010-11-10T23:54:00.003+08:00

I finally finished my 1st bottle of Cleansing Express sebum. Initially, I was thinking whether I should just grab my 2nd bottle. But after reading a review about this being better than the cleansing lotion, I decided to give it a try.

It is a water based gel, without paraben and fragrance, which is good for sensitive skin.

The ingredient:-

Made in Japan, so the quality is assured as most item from Japan are high in quality.

Instead of removing make up using cotton pad for lotion type, for gel type, you need to apply it like how you using your facial cleanser, and rinse it with water upon using.

My experience on using this product? It can remove my face make up like bb cream, powder and blusher very well, however I got some problem in removing eye make up with this gel. It cant remove my Majolica Majorca mascara (just like the lotion), plus I had a bit of problem in removing my eyeliner especially at waterline since Im trying to avoid the gel from getting into my eye, like how we avoid cleanser foam to get into our delicate eye. So most of the time, I will use Cleansing Express Eye Make Up Remover for eye make up.

So whats my opinion for this product compare to the lotion type? Honestly, I prefer the lotion type more over this. I think by using cotton pad, we can get more control on which face area to clean especially for those harder to reach area like eyes.

Overall, this make up remover wasnt that bad, but less convenient than the lotion type. The price however is cheaper by few RM tho. You can get this at Watson, Jusco and SASA outlets.

My ratings: 6/10

Review: Mandom Beauty Cleansing Express Sebum

2010-10-29T09:06:00.006+08:00

Actually I bought this quite awhile already. Infact, the bottle already reached the bottom XD. This is a water based make-up remover from Japan. There are 4 types of them, which is for oily skin (green), dry skin (white), anti-aging (orange) and the latest one, for sensitive skin(purple). I bought the green bottle since I have a combination, more to oily skin.

Picture taken from Mandom Beauty website. (the flower pattern are slightly different from the one that I bought)

So, my review about this product?

I love it! 1-2 squirt of this lotion on a cotton pad is just enough to remove make up from my face. You may need 2 cotton pads for thicker make up. And from the description, you can just straight go to bed without cleaning your face after using this. But I still wash my face after using this, just want to make sure my face is really clean, plus its a routine to wash my face before going to bed. However, this make up remove failed in removing my Marjolica Majorca mascara (most stubborn mascara!) . It can remove my Relian Mascara effectively tho. So most of the time, Im using this to clear all make up on my face plus using Mandom Beauty cleansing express Eye Make up Remover for my eye make up.

Plus, its free from alcohol, preservative, oil, fragant, colorant which is very good for sensitive skin.

Overall, this is going to be something that I will repurchase. For Malaysian, you can find this at Watson or Jusco. I forgot the price but I think its around RM28-RM3X something which is affordable for a huge 300ml bottle.

My rating: 7/10 (I wish it can remove my MM mascara)

I'm very disappointed

2010-10-20T09:26:00.004+08:00

I treat you with lots of love, but you treat me as good as rubbish whenever you want to. I cant believe that this is you. Can you at least treat me like Im a human with feelings? Because that is what I am...

Will u feel happy if I just vanished forever from your life..?

Thank you

2010-10-02T10:56:00.002+08:00

Thanks for everyone who wished me a happy birthday, friends and family. Really appreciate you all. My father who still can knock my door at midnight to wish me happy birthday, my mother who sms me from her bed room at that night to wish me a happy birthday. My sis of course, or else Im gonna to kill her cow collection. My dear friend kismet who never failed to wish me Happy Birthday every year since we knew each other. Siti Hajar who missed call me twice yesterday, sorry I left my phone inside my room, but I know you want to wish me a happy birthday :) . Kelvin who wish me in advanced because he mistakenly remember wrong date, but still thats ok XD. And wishes from facebook even tho I know most of them just remember by the facebook notification but then, it still counted as a wish! Jo Ee, Lian Ann, Zoen aka Mir, Yen Fern aka Bluberry, Winnie aka Ice mei, Vin, Sot Panda aka iLovesk didi, Azwa, Heethanjali, Sean aka my "twins" after factoring the time difference LOL, Lec, Afiqah, Felix, Nana (I wan freebies for the club pls :P), Marzuqi, Juven, Hong Lye,ジェジュン, Beautie, Asiah, Anney, Kim aka ddark, Mr Khaw, and Michelle. Thanks all.

Wish me all the best after this on everything, my 22 was a taugh year. Hopefully 23 will be a better year with lots of success and love. Insyaallah.. :)

-------

Reen.

Ecotools brushes haul.

2010-09-24T22:56:00.005+08:00

Yeah, been wanting this brushes since people claims it to be among the softest brushes which never sheds, cheap, and made from synthetic fur which is good for those who sensitive towards real animal fur.

So here it is!!

TADA!!

I bought mine from ebay auction at a very cheap price which is USD12 for BOTH including shipping. I did googled around just incase there are any fake Ecotools product on ebay, but since like there are no complains about it so far. So I guess it is safe? Plus, Ecotools brushes are made from China after all.

Anyway, I love the brushes. Its really soft and I love touching it. The baby kabuki is a bit out of shape though since it got pressed in the packing. But thats alright.

If anyone interested in getting it from ebay, you can get it from this seller. You can choose to buy through "buy it now" at a fix price or through "auction" for cheaper price depends on your luck and sometimes skill, like me..lol. The shipping was fast, which is less than 2 weeks for my case. Or for those lyn shopper or Malaysian buyer, you can buy the brushes from this seller who selling it at RM35 per set (it was RM29.90 initially but the price increased due to high demand) and also no reservation. Well, she cant reserve them for me when I was outstation during Raya back then and even the post office still havent back in operation from holiday. But I guess in business, there is no compromise and time cant wait ( even in certain circumstances)? Lol. But still, she got among the best price for this brushes, even still cant beat the dirt cheap price from ebay.

So, for those who want to find a good make up brush, yet affordable, get this! Its totally worth it :)

2010-09-20T02:02:00.003+08:00

Gonna meet him tomorrow, in Subang. Only for awhile tho. Hopefully its going to be fine. Anyway, he just said something that hurt me a lot, I think the worst. Things turn fine at the end but then I wont forget it. Never. Honestly, I already think that I am back to single after that words. That serious.

Anyway, may God be with me tomorrow. Just incase it got cancelled again, I wont be as disappointed as before. Instead, I will take it as a sign from God on what's the best for me.

Hada Labo Hauls and a short review!

2010-09-18T03:39:00.006+08:00

After seeing many good reviews, plus testing from the sample given to me like months back, I finally decided to purchase some product from Hada Labo, a brand from Japan.

So, here's my pick

From left to right:
Super Hyaluronic Acid (SHA) Moisturizing face wash, AHA/BHA face wash, SHA Moisturizing Lotion, SHA Moisturizing Cream, SHA Moist Mist.

Well, maybe people who not familiar with Hada Labo might wonder why did I bought 2 kinds of face wash, or both lotion and cream. So here's the reason why. Im using SHA Moisturizing face wash as my daily cleanser, while the AHA/BHA face wash is a substitution for scrub, since it exfoliate skins. SHA Moisturizing Lotion act as toner, while the SHA Moisturizing cream, is obviously a moisturizer.

What about the moist mist? It is to be used whenever your skin need extra hydration while in air-cond room or anywhere, and the best thing is, it can be used over make up without melting it. Plus the size is very convenient to bring inside handbags.

As I already using some of the products for couple of weeks, Im gonna throw in some short review in this post.

The SHA face wash:
So far I like it. It doesnt make my skin dry of course due to the SHA ingredients. And it never cause any break outs to me, plus this is the only scentless face wash that Im using so far, which is great.

AHA/BHA face wash:
Love love love this. I feel my skin smoother everytime I washing my face with this product. It really exfoliate well, and I think I dont need to use any scrub anymore. Scrub always irritates my skin anyway. So this is a very good replacement over scrub. And it scentless too. But please take note that you need to use a sunscreen product incase you washing your face using this during day. Thats one of the reason why I only using this at night, since I dont really wear sunscreen, accept for my bb cream.

SHA Lotion:
Another love from SHA range. Infact, this is the best selling product for Hada Labo. 1 bottle sold every 4 seconds in Japan. Wow. I love how it hydrates my skin very well. I can feel some rough surface on my skin subsides a bit when using this lotion. But remember to pat it instead of applying it straight to the skin, because if you dont pat, it will remain sticky on your face. Like the face wash, this is scentless too.

SHA Cream:
There is another version of this product, called SHA Moisturizing Milk, which is in milky lotion form. But I heard quite of reviews saying that it can become too sticky and runny, thus I choose the new cream form instead. It not greasy at all, scentless. But dont put too much, especially for those with oily skin as it may remain sticky. This product also need to be patted on skin instead of straight applying it using your hand to our face.

Moist Mist:
Love this. My face tends to dry in air-cond room, thus this is my problem solver for my case. And it wont melt in your make up too!

Hada Labo product can be bought exclusively at Guardian for Malaysia market. I got 10% discount on my purchases so if you want to get the discounted price, you better be hurry.

And one more thing, Hada Labo that been sold in Malaysia, are made in China, instead of Japan. However, they are manufactured with high quality control, so no worries. But for those who really want it to be made in Japan, you might need to order it from Japan Spree, or purchasing it at Singapore (seems like they selling made in Japan hada labo there). Get ready to pay more though.

If you want to know more about Hada Labo product, can add their facebook for more information.

Update: After using the AHA/BHA face wash for quite awhile, I noticed that it kinda dried up my skin as Im using it frequent. And dry skin makes my skin break out. So now I guess I'll try to just use it 3 times per week and see how it goes.

Think positive!

2010-09-06T10:05:00.001+08:00

You know what? Im sooo glad that I got a religion that strongly prohibited this stupid act which most of people who got love problem like me thinking of doing it when they feel like the world is nothing without love. You know what the thing is it right? It is suicide. The act that many people think can ended their sorrows, which is actually, WRONG. By suiciding, you actually throwing away all your chances for a better life, but choose an eternal sorrow. Because in Islam, people who taking his/her own life will be placed in hell FOREVER. NO WAY OUT.I pray very hard, that it will never happen to me.

I think the only way to overcome any sadness is just by thinking what's going to wait you ahead in the future. And it could be much better than what you currently having right now. Just think positive all the way, and with God's will, you will survive in this cruel world.

Hmm..I always feel better after talking some crap. hahaha. Oh but the above is not crap, really :)

For both of you.

2010-09-01T22:39:00.003+08:00

Somehow I felt like Im being a victim of someone's jealousy over something that really unnecessary. I dont know if any fake story created by either that particular gal or guy party to save their butt, I cant be sure since I wont follow up on their problem as it is not my business and Im not interested either. Plus further asking may lead to more unnecessary misunderstanding. As I know my name is brought up on that problem even I dont know if there is any add up of some extra story whatsoever, like I dont know what the guy will tell the girl while bringing my name and vice verca, Im going to write here just to clarify on situation.

To that lady:
1. Im not interested on your man, even he is my ex, or should I say, my 'ex'.
2. Friendly doesnt mean flirt. Yes, he is friendly but he never flirt.
3. His "surprise" doesnt really mean surprise, because most of the time his surprise
was not really a surprise in my standard but just a usual normal thing. I bet you
know this?
4. Since I ended with him, I never start any conversation in msn, sms or whatsoever.
If there is any conversation, you know who started it, but dont worry it just a
friend-friend conversation, at least thats how I treat it.
5. No need to remind me that you still together with him. Seriously, for what? It got
nothing to do with me and not important to me at all! As if I want to take your
man..duhh.
6. I think it is not necessary to mention about your (you-know-what) to me several
time. I guess you know what is the meaning by the word "privacy".
7. You shouldnt be afraid of me causing problem in your relationship, because the one
you should be afraid is actually yourself.
8. I got a boyfriend. Isnt this reason strong enough? Even if Im single, I wont ever
turn back to him.
9. You keep saying the problem is not me, but the way you remind me, the way you said
dont do things behind your back, whether If I still want to play and other craps
make me feel as if you think I am a part of the problem. Isnt it a little
contradicting? And bombing someone's msn with those crap from 3am till 5.30am isnt
nice. Lucky it never wake my slumber or else I already shoot you with my words.
10.Please la, think maturely. At your age, you should able to think like a normal
adult, infact your age is much much more mature than me la miss.
11.Lastly, this is not really my business, but just want to tell you that a good gf
will treat his bf like a bf, not like her son or her bird pet inside cage. Im not
perfect but at least I know the basic.

To that guy:
1. If your gal say something that sound offence to me, I will protect myself, and if
necessary, counter attack. So dont expect me to stay quiet letting other people to
say whatever she want.
2. I know you, even not much, but still I know you. So I hope you wont creating fake
story about me just to save your self. Same goes to your lady.
3. I wont telling something that ruining your relationship. So I hope there wont be
any misunderstanding like the last time when you stating something on your msn
message like I causing you to quarrel with you gal which is not.
4. I never forget on anything happened in the pass but still, I never hold any
grudge. Im ok for still be friends but I know this will only make your gal cannot
sleep whole day, so just do whatever thing that can make your gal happy lor even
it might mean to end our friendship. Do whatever you think is the best.
5. Be patience and good luck.

I dont know if any of two of you will bumped on this blog. But you will if you google on my name (which is likely can happen). I dont mean to offend any of you but this is just to explain on my side and to be fair for me from any extended version of fake stories if any. Hey, even Im not really involve but I dont want my name got tarnished in any way, you know?

DIY: Lip Scrub

2010-08-10T23:02:00.003+08:00

Recently while surfing youtube videos, I came across a beauty guru channel by Michelle Phan and Im seriously hooked! There are many beauty gurus out there, and she isnt the prettiest among them, but somehow her videos are really fun to watch for (well..at least for me). I love the music she used, her words, the way she narrates the videos, her sweet voice, instruction, description, the humor, the randomness or maybe should I say I love almost everything about her videos! Even my sister who not really into make up stuff can watch her video from start to the end. Haha! I know most people who love make ups already know about her, but incase you dont know. you can check out here channel here.

So back to the title, I saw one of her video titled Kissable Lips DIY. In the video, she shows how to get a soft kissable lips by exfoliate the lips using DIY lip scrub. As I think it look easy and fun, so I decided to try it out!

This is the lips before it get scrubbed, I hope it doesnt look gross :(

What you need is pretty simple. A table spoon of sugar, 2 table spoon of honey and a squirt of vaseline. You can buy vaselline from pharmacies like Watson or Guardian. I got mine in 50g tub for RM4++ .

Firstly, put all the stuff in a small container.

Stir it so that you can get a gritty texture like so.

Next, just put it onto your lips like how you apply lip balm, and then just rub it all over your lips using your fingers.

Again, sorry if the teeth look gross >_<

Finally, wipe it off with wash cloth or tissue. And tada...! You get an exfloliated lips. Can see the difference?

I never scrub my lips before, and I think this way is very simple yet fun! And did I tell you that the scrub taste yummy too? Even with vaseline. Lol.

Have fun trying it for those who interested! And you might check Michelle Phan's channel for more fun tutorial.!

Thats all. Thanks for reading ^_^

Sick gummy

2010-08-09T01:54:00.005+08:00

So..my poor teeth gummy have been sicking since last Thursday and now it got swelled badly. I will always feel there is a big bump on my lower left chick especially when I just woke up from a slumber. And now it getting worst till the the level that most thing that involve the movement of mouth muscle hurts! It hurts when Im swallowing (food, drink, saliva, wadsoever that can be swallowed), it hurts when Im brushing teeth, it hurts when Im yawning, and it even hurts when I was burping, wtf.

It making me damn frustrated for the whole day as Im having pain everytime Im swallowing my saliva as if Im having a throat ulcer which is not and chewing food is such a chore. Dont even think of chewing something like gummy bear when your gummy is sick, you gonna scream ouchhh...!

Eating panadol wasnt enough so I guess I need to see dentist tomorrow. I dont want to bear this pain till fasting month, gosh, it would be a night mare fasting while having a sick mouth T.T

And that means I need to take mc tomorrow. Yay!! Thats the good part :P So if any of my colleague read this, you know what happen to me if I absence tomorrow, haha. I think this is finally my time to take mc, since I never had one ever since my first working day, lol.

Anyway, since someone already off to bed, that means I also need to sleep now (if I can sleep la). But before that, maybe I'll play few poker hand 1st, lol.

So, nite nite~

Overdue haul: Circle lenses

2010-08-02T10:57:00.002+08:00

Back then, I owned only 2 pairs of circle lenses which is XCK-105 and Barbie Super Nudy Green and thats it. But ever since I got my temporary job, I started browsing back those circle lenses shop and thread and now I think I have fall into the circle lens bandwagon once again.

So this is my few months back (thats why I called this an overdue haul) pick on circle lenses.

From left to right:
Big DM23 brown, Max Pure pink, Max Pure Brown and MX-21 Black

I also bought a few sets of lens case, or else where am I gonna put all these lenses right.

The bottles are so pretty so I think I might keep them as collection. lol.

If you wondering what are the brand of these circle lens, DM23 and Max Pure Pink are from Dueba and MX-21 is from G&G but I heard people said Dueba and G&G is a same brand.

And for my Max Pure Brown, I have no idea whether this is from Dueba or EOS, because the supplier (Jujulens) change the original label into their own label:

So now the bottle label is Jujulens, instead of (insert brand name here). In my opinion, I dont think this is a good idea, since they should at least state what is the real brand right? And they even ditch the lens name. Plus some people (like me) might want to collect the bottle with different pretty labels, instead of having 4 pairs of different lens but with same label and no specific name and brand, sounds boring right?

Just a low quality picture on how each lenses look like:

Top from left: DM23 Brown and Max Pure Pink

Bottom from left: MX-21 Black and Max Pure Brown

Anyway, I might reviewing each lens when I have time. So far Im liking all of them, especially the Max Pure series. And more big hauls on circle lens are coming soon. So stay tune. And yes I guess I am now addicted to circle lens!

current wishlist

2010-07-26T22:44:00.002+08:00

Ever since I working, my shopping desire grow bigger and bigger along with my wishlist of course. I go out for window shopping (which turn out to shopping) at least twice a month and the worst is I window shopping (which also can turn to shopping) online everyday!! It just unstoppable thus creating a massive destruction on my bank account T.T

Anyway, here is my current top whishlist for now.

LG Renoir - seriously I need a new phone

Solotica NC Mel - Im not going to buy this in nearest time but I hope I will.

New spectacle with degree - My spec coating spoil already

any Perfume CD - Im so into Perfume mode now.

baby pink and coral blush (brand tba) - my blushes finally reaching the pan after like..5 years? Yay!

any good bronzer - just start to learn how to contour make up

make up brush set - I only have 2 brushes so far. Blush/face brush and eyeliner brush :(

a good clarifying toner - Pure Beauty toner doesnt work on me

concealer - I dont have any

88 eyeshadow pallete - Im not sure about this, but Im totally fail in eyeshadowing >.<

Unagi roll from jusco - its a food, I know, but I so really want it. I just love unagi sushi.

Honestly, the list will never stop but for now, those are my top current wishlist. I know my wallet is going to cry again >.<

Lippie Hauls: MyLipStuff and NYX

2010-07-19T03:08:00.003+08:00

I think this is my biggest haul so far, just for lip product, at least for someone who not really a make up junkie like me.

So, here it is!

MyLipStuff.com. Its the coolest lip balm merchant in a whole world. You can choose over 400+ flavor for your lipbalms. I bet choosing flavor isnt easy. I myself spent few days just to pick my flavour. lol.

Upside Down Pineapple Cake, Shamrock Shake, Jalapeno Poppers and Twisted Melon.

The packaging is very simple, but thats ok.

All sounds yummy didnt they? Except for the Jalapeno Poppers of course which sounds rather scary. Lol.

And, how it really feels and TASTE on lips?

[Upside Down Pineapple Cake]

Im not a fan of pineapple, but why did I choose this? It because I saw a lot of good reviews on the reviews section, and all of them except 1, gave this 4 stars and above.

And now my opinion. I smell a lot of coconut in this, mix with vanilla or caramel, but cant really sense the pineapple. Honestly, its no as yummy as I thought it could be, but its not that bad. However, I wont repurchase this flavor.

Next....!

[Shamrock Shake]

I never taste the real Shamrock Shake aka minty milkshake, but this lip balms is really really good. Its minty and smells delicious. Have you ever eat Andes chocolate with mint flavor? It smells exactly like that! Just one complain, the minty feeling doesnt last long. But overall, I love this, It's my favourite among others. Might repurchase.

the most interesting one..

[Jalapeno Poppers]

People said "Jalapeno" flavours is good as lip plumpers, as you will feel hot as if you smeared the real jalapeno onto your lips, while "Jalapeno Poppers" is same as Jalapeno, but with addition of cheese flavor. And yes! Its hootttt on my lips and I can feel the tingling burning sensation. Shortly after that, my lip plumped. Cool isnt it. But the only turn off is this balm smell sour. I guess because of the cheese? Not going to repurchase this, or maybe I'll just choose "Jalapeno" next time.

[Twisted Melon]

Actually this is my sis lip balms. She dont know how to choose out of 400++ different flavors, but then she said to me that she want something fruity and minty, and I ended choose this. The melon is there, but sadly, the mint isnt really there. So, thumbs down for this. Not going to repurchase.

And honestly, the balm texture itself is good, very moisturize. And the great thing is all the ingredients to make these balmies are natural. So no chemicals added.

And for NYX.

Megashine Lip Gloss in Beige, Megashine Lip Gloss in Smokey Look, and Round lipstick in Indian Pink.

I bought the megashines from other seller from lyn while the Indian Ink was purchased together with the MLS. Im not going to review these for now since I dont have a good lighting source currently to snap swatches.

If anyone wondering how did I get my hand for MLS, actually I joined a US spree handled by someone called Rowena from lyn. She handles several sprees at time, and recently, she just opened a new forum, just for her spree http://forum.malaysianbeautystore.com/.

Anyway, Im going to sleep now since its very late already. Lucky Im on leave tomorrow. Yay~

Good night~

Hauls from beautyarea2u.com!

2010-07-19T01:40:00.006+08:00

Yeah, its been awhile since the last time I shopped from beautyarea2u.com aka pei2 from lyn. One thing that I love when shop with her is I will get reply at a rather speedy rate everytime I got anything to ask (unlike some other seller..) Anyway. after checking her website, I end up buying a bunch of stuff, mostly are quite random stuff. And this time I entitled for her "mystery gift"!

So, heres come the parcel:

Always love her neat packaging.

And my loots:

Top from left: Mascara guide, Cotton puff case, Anna Sui inspired hand mirror
Bottom from left: fringe holder, Koji partial eyelash curler, 2in1 twizer and blackhead pocker, lashies helper and cell roller.

The price for the stuff are rather, so dont expect too much from them. Infact, Im not 100% happy with my purchase as well >.<>

Anna Sui inspired mirror.

Its not that big, but since I already have a big mirror that can show my half body, so its not a biggie. Its pretty and girly. My sis said it feels like Sailor Neptune when holding this. lol.

See how pretty it is.

It can be folded too!

Being an inspired item, and CHEAP, of course the quality is not as good the original expensive Anna Sui. Smudges, scratches on the body..guess I got what the price that I paid for.

Im not going to spent a bunch of money just for a piece of mirror anyway.

Next, the cotton puff case, which I think is also an Anna Sui inspired stuff.

I love love love this. Finally I got a nice place for my cotton pad. Haha! The case is really cute and pretty. Oh, it actually came with 2 colors of choice, black and transparent. But black went out of stock :( Thats why I ended with transparent instead which turn to be not bad. But just incase pei2 restock the black color, Im going to grab it for sure!

Just one complain, I dont really like the word engraved on the case. "BRBI STORY". Wad the hell is BRBI? And from far, it looks like BABI instead @_@

Fringe holder. Actually this item can be bought easily from SASA or Jusco. Quite a handy tools to replace pins or headband while we doing make up. Good stuff!

Mascara guide. I think this is good for beginner. For someone who got used of using mascara, this item actually isnt really a necessary.

The twizzer. The plucker is kinda sharp. And somehow it cut the hair before actually plucking it. Not good imo.

Koji partial curler.

I read a review from other people that this tool work great on her. But somehow, I feel its quite dificult to use as I always like poking my eyes with this. Perhaps more practice needed? Anyway, of course I prefer my Shu Uemura much much more than this. Thumbs down.

Remember I stated about the mystery gift, so here it is!

A headband and 1 sachet of slimming tea.............................

ok, no comment about the gift :x Its a gift anyway :P

Thats all for my pei2 haul for this month. More hauls coming soon!

Free sample from Hada Labo!

2010-07-16T17:13:00.003+08:00

As I rushed to my mail box yesterday, hopping there is my lip balms from MyLipstuff Spree waiting for me, I was disappointed to see there was no post express envelope inside..

But wait! There was a letter for me and it came from Mentholathum. And I knew what its going to be inside, and I was right. :D

Tada..!

Its my Super Hyaluronic Acid (SHA) Moisturizing Lotion sample, and they even slipped in a sachet of SHA Moisturizing Cream sample.

Sold 1 bottle every 4 second in Japan. Can you believe that??

This is actually a new product from SHA range. Its actually the moisturizing milk in cream version.

The SHA Lotion sample comes in a mini bottle. It just so cute as it looks like a mini version of the full size. Im gonna keep this for sure after I finished it up.

Oh, and they even provide a booklet describing all their SHA range inside. Quite useful for those who want to know about their product.

And now Im thinking of getting this SHA Moist Mist.

It act to keep your face moisturized whenever you sprit it, and the good thing is it can be used over make up on the go, anytime we need some extra moist on our face.

But before that Im gonna try the sample first before I decide to splurge on this product.

Oh! And if anybody interested in getting the sample, you can try go to Hada Labo link and register. I guess the giveaway for free sample is still open.

How I wish if there is more website are giving sample like this >_<

untitled

2010-07-13T23:20:00.003+08:00

The pain that keep flowing seems like unbearable anymore. I dont know when it should stop. I dont think this is normal anymore and honestly I cannot take this kind of attitude anymore. I wonder what will happen if it just end. The truth is, if it really end, its like Im saving myself from something bad, and I wont have much to loose. But then, why I dont want to save myself?

I wonder whats wrong with me?

Should I still holding on? Should I still believe in all those words and promises? I dont want keep doing stupid things. I dont want to take a step that makes me regret for my whole life.

Or is it me again who always take things negatively? I always make things big, but for me it is because its really a big issue.

I dont think this is right anymore, but.. I really dont know. And once candy is given, size doesnt matter as long as it sweet, Im back to normal and yapping again. Guess Im just to weak.

God please help me. Show me the true path. Is what Im doing right now is a right thing? Am I lost?

Anyway..I got my candy..some..but this time, Im still not satisfy. Hmm.

Spain is the one

2010-07-12T05:04:00.002+08:00

Hail to the octopus!. Lol I guess many people hate you Paul. Anyway Spain made it at 116'. Well Im not really with any of the team so yay~ today is the end of the vuvuzelas crowd. No more angry bees sound hover around my tv anymore.

Need to sleep now or else I will driving while half sleep later. Guess it will be a quiet day in the office tomorrow. Haha!

Till then, good night!

Germany vs Spain. Who will win?

2010-07-07T23:17:00.005+08:00

I dont really watch football. But then I do watch World Cup. Haha. So tonight match, Germany vs Spain. Honestly I never see how Spain play before and I've seen how Germany team play several times already. Since all the team that I supported already balik kampung (Japan, South Korea, what else..Ghana? lol) I guess I'll go with Germany for tonight.

But wait!!

Paul said its Spain who will win tonight!

See..!

Hi, my name is Paul. Im a physcic octopus who can predict who's the winner.

Oh Paul, you make majority of Germany fan hating you right now. Some of them might thinking of turning you into barbeque octopus as a snack for tonight.

But still, I dont understand why people believe in Paul and he's like a celebrity now, lol. Seriously, he just an octopus =.= Just release him to the damn sea people.

Anyway, Im still think that Germany going to win tonight. Will Paul be able to keep his 100% accurate record for WC tonight? We will see..

Edit: So.. seems that, Paul was right, once again. =_=''

Happy Birthday to my dear

2010-06-01T03:03:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday to you~
Happy birthday to you~
Happy birthday to dear dear~
Happy birthday to you~~~~~ *blow candles*

Hows the feeling of blowing 24 candles? Haha...

Anyway, to my naughty dear, happy 24th birthday~ 24 year old already, please be matured a bit k. Dont always moody moody, I very suffer everytime you moody, you know.

I will give you something, once we meet. Its not that big but I hope you will accept it.

Happy birthday hun! I heart you~

SASA and its....annoying SA

2010-05-16T00:43:00.004+08:00

Yesterday, I went to my usual leisure spot, Jusco, with my sis. After we done stuffing our sweet stomach with the sinfully slice of Secret Recipe cake, I dragged my sis to Watson, planning to test some bb cream as mine at home already reaching to its end. I rushed to the BRTC bb cream shelve only to see there are no tester tube available. So, I step out from Watson and headed to SASA.

I actually love SASA. They selling a wide range of beauty product including those from Korea and Japan which cant be found in other beauty / pharmacy store. The price are acceptable too. Everytime I go there, there are always something that I want to see. However, despite off all the good things, there is one thing that I hate most in SASA, and it is their SA (sales assistants). I mean, not all..but some of them can be pretty annoying. I remember I read somewhere that their SA can be very pushy too, which I do believe is true, even tho I dont really have any experience with pushy SASA SA.

So, back to my story, I went into SASA and my eyes start to linger for any bb cream around, and yay~ I saw a shelve full with Shills bb cream. I patted some from the tester tube to my arm, and by that time, I already noticed one SA already standing next to me. After done with Shills, I walk around finding other brand, with the escort from the SA, which I dont really mind at first even I prefer to shop without being watched by her. She just tailing me everywhere. Finally, I found Dr. G bb cream range that Im really interested to try. The SA asked if Im looking for bb cream. I said yes and start to grab the tester tube and patted it on my back palm just to see the shade. If its a right shade, then I might buy it next month.

After Im done, I walked away from the shelve, followed buy the SA. I thought want to stay awhile more, but my sister signaling me to out faster. Since there is nothing more that I really want to see, so I step out from the store. While walking, my sister told me that I was surrounded by 4 SA while testing the Dr.G bb cream. I was like..wah!! FOUR??! And the distance from each other is close too, with some of them having their arms crossed, you know like people waiting for something, and of course with snobbish face. Thats what my sister told me.

Honestly, I dont like to browse with a SA escorting me every step that I made in the shop. How I wish I could just chase them away. But sometimes we need to understand that its their job to "assist" us even sometimes their "assistance" are not really necessary. But seriously, I dont need FOUR girls in black standing watching me patting bb cream with their sharp look. Hello~ am I look like a thief wearing net mask or something that I need an extra six eyes to watch over me?

The knitted mask kinda cute right?

Or I guess you're afraid that I would slap the whole tester tube to my face and body like nobody business huh? Ohh..but Im not the type of people who abused all tester stuff on the counter. Or are you girls intend to chase me away like some people would do to customer who camping in their store for hours without buying? But..wait, Im not even stand there for 1 hour. Infact I just step in like less than 10 minutes ago?

So, girls.. what's your motive of surrounding a customer at every edge. Dont you realize that it will just only scare them away or at the very least, annoyed them for sure instead of attract them to buy? I bet this might be one of the reason why I see SASA here is always empty. It was Saturday, and people just crowding in Watson beauty stuff section next door, while SASA was only having like 1-2 customer when I step in and zero when I left.

Im not trying to defaming SASA or what, but I really hope their store manager could give guidelines to their SA on how to assist the customer without "scaring" them away. Even I dont feel like stepping inside whenever I see the shop is empty because I know I would be 'attacked' by their SA. It such a pity since there a lots of goodies sitting on their shelves. Fortunately that most of Japanese or Korean product that are sold in SASA can be found online. I rather pay extra for the shipping~

At least I can browse the stuff peacefully without someone tailing me with a dirty look. pfft!!

My internet is back!

2010-04-14T19:46:00.002+08:00

Finally! After a very suffering 1 month using the bleh dial-up, after a countless number of being disconnected, after a gazillions of cursing because of the slower than snail dial-up connection, after a few meals at McD just to get a good internet, after competing the telephone wire with my bro just to get online, after many many sms as msn substitution which actually doubled up my monthly bills, and now its here! Yes! Streamyx staff came to my house today and activate my long awaited upgraded Streamyx.

They give us a wireless or router modem or wadsoever it is called, so now Im no longer in need in using my 15m of lan cable which is quite convenient. I can bring my laptop and surf net everywhere in my house now. In living room, in parent's bedroom, in dining hall, or even in toilet if I want too. Haha! No need to lock myself in this small bedroom just to get online whole day.

So, am I satisfied or not? So far, my msn dced 4 times, and I already restart the modem once. I can say its not a good start yet. Perhaps I should let it to settled down for few days before make any complaints.

And how's the so called 4mbps speed performance? I downloaded a zipped file of 39mb in 10 minutes, and now a 54mb file which expected to finish downloaded in 40 minutes times. Hmm, sounds unstable. But perhaps because there is other 2 computers in my house that using internet right now so it got split into 3, thus I cant complain much.

But as long as I can surf internet like before, I will not care much about it. Finally I can set my mind free again. I just tired being trapped in this apartment block, doing nothing and having a huge view of school constructing site as my window's view of panorama. What a brain torturing.

I didnt say that internet is my whole life, but instead its a part of my life which Im really glad to have it back.

A day in Residence Hotel

2010-04-04T02:43:00.004+08:00

Im currently online from Residence Hotel UNITEN.
Dont ask what the hell that Im doing here, because I dont want to tell you why. Seriously, the reason is quite lame. But whatever it is that's ok since I enjoy my every stay in hotel. I'm a hotel lover since Im a travel lover.

The hotel provides wifi to residents by just paying RM3 per day which is very cheap. Thats how I get myself online now.

The signal is low but the speed is normal, gazillion better than my stupid dial-up.

Remember in previous post I said my dial-up speed is only 28kbps which is pathetic? Now it goes much worse as the best speed I can get now is only 16.8kbps. I can say goodbye to my meebo already. And my record with my dial-up so far is 4.3kbps which equivalence to no internet at all. Damn it.

Anyway, just forget about my dial-up as now Im enjoying my wifi from hotel room, such a comfortable way to surf internet. Ahhh...

Im so happy to be able to read all my favourites blog updates as well as window shopping. I just done surfing Pei2 thread. Wow, there are lots of new stuff. But too bad Im very broke right now since I havent get any job yet. Sigh..

Im still waiting for interviews after sending my resume to several people. Really hope will get any good news soon. I cant wait to smell new money notes in my hand. I already had enough time always having only smelly RM1 notes in my pocket. Seriously, my wallet need some fresh air.

With this 1 day internet, I grab my chance to listen to my favourite Japan techno group, Perfume latest single titled Fushizen na Girl. I really love love love that song. Infact, Im going to download the pv before I going to sleep soon. Because of money issue, I didn pre-order the single but thats ok, since Im going to buy their album for sure. Missing a single wont be such a big deal if we getting the album instead.

And of course I wont miss signing my abandoned msn. Happy to see my dear dear online. Even Im happy to see he smsing more frequent asking about my whereabouts while my internet is missing, msn still among the convenient way. Today even he busy studying but we still manage to chat. He just went to bed awhile ago, which means my time to go to bed soon.

Now its very cold here till I wrapping myself with blanket like a giant KFC Twister.

Back then when we just check-in here, the hotel was having some problem with the air-condition till my father make a noise complaining to the manager. We then was allowed to change room, even he said most room are having the same problem currently. Now I guess the problem already solved.

Oh..I only staying here for 1 night only, so tomorrow evening I will back to my pathetic dial-up. Nooooo!!! Hate!Hate!Hate!

But I got a great news. My father said 8th April my Streamyx is coming back. My awaits finally reaching the end. Happy!Happy!Happy! I just hope it wont got delayed by any means or else Im going to curse them!

I wish I could adhere infront of my laptop till the moment I checking out tomorrow, but sleeping in nice air-conditioned hotel room is something that I dont bear to miss as well. So Im going to sleep now.

Good nite!

2 weeks more to go

2010-03-27T02:33:00.002+08:00

2 weeks has passed since my streamyx got "cut-off". And Im glad Im still alive. Wohoo~! Ok, I know Im not going to die just because of the absence of broadband, unless if I am some sort of game freak who treat online games as her/his gf/bf or food. Those people really exist. Believe me. Hey! Some people can let their poor baby died in hunger because they were busy feeding their virtual baby you know. This is true story, I aint lying.

Anyway, how did I survive my days without streamyx? Of course my sucky dial-up helps a lot. Even now I need to compete with my second bro who always try to grab the line phone, but, it still better than nothing, right? The only thing that Im afraid is how my father face going to look like when he receive the phone bill at the end of this month? The bills going to exceed RM100. Scary T_T

Now, I already stop using ebuddy as my msn substitution. Instead, Im using meebo. Thanks to Nanako for the recommendation. This is much much better than ebuddy. I can pop out the chat box like msn, less dc, less copy and paste those failed to sent messages and the most important thing is I can say goodbye forever to that noisy advertisement that haunt my ear on ebuddy. The only downside is the new message sound isnt as loud as msn and the "bling" are not colored like msn. But never mind, at least I still can see when new message coming.

Since I cant online so frequent already, I sms with people who I always chat on msn a lot (except with someone who always has no credit. Pftt). It looks like not only my house phone bill, but my hand phone bills going to sky high too >_<. Normally my hp bills are between RM18-RM30, but most probably it will go beyonds RM30 this time. But I guess thats ok since it just once in a while >_<

How about my window shopping habit? Well.. at first I thought no streamyx, no shopping. But I guess I am totally wrong. Im still spending. I just pre-ordered latest LOVE album, secure my latest Ayu album, and spending on some beauty stuff again. I can still load my destructed paypal and maybank2u account despite of the speed of king of snail with dial-up. I should give myself a tight slap. *piak*

Nevertheless, there are still some stuff that totally cant do without streamyx. I can chat, I can surf forum, I can blog without pictures, I can shop without tons of pictures. But I totally cant do any video/music stream. I cant open whatsoever application on facebook. Im glad that Im not a heavy facebook user nor youtube. I cant download files more than 3mb if I dont want to wait too long. All those stuff that require high bandwidth, I can just totally forget it.

So when some of my friends intro me to some songs, Im sorry I cant listen to them unless if he/she willing to convert the songs to smallest size and send to me via email. And now there are 3 of my favourite Japan artist that are releasing their new album/single which are Ayumi, Perfume and LOVE. While other people can enjoy the leaks from those album, by downloading it or watching them from youtube, I just only can know what things are already leaked from my friend Nanako and from her I know I already missed lots of thing T_T.

Im still blaming TmNuts and Screamyx for my internet nightmare. In this modern high tech era when people treating internet like rice for everydays consumption, how could they still make 1 freaking month as "quarantine" period for changing account which is actually for upgrading purposes? What a bullshit procedure.

Blah..guess I need to cope for this final 2 weeks. If my internet not coming back after 2 weeks, Im going to throw big thantrum to TmNet. Ok??!!

No Streamyx for 1 month

2010-03-20T01:17:00.003+08:00

My father decided to upgrade my streamyx to 4mbps speed. Initially I was excited. Imagine, from 512kbps to 4mbps. Wow, 8 times faster. Cool. In order to get that freaking speed, the old streamyx need to be terminated before we change to the new one. Oh, ok, fine. But only AFTER it got terminated, my father said that I need to wait for at least 1 month before the new streamyx can be activated. I was like.... ONE MONTH?? Without streamyx?? NOOOO!!!

Why on earth they need to take a 1 freaking month just to create the account? Hello, its not that I didnt pay the bills thus I need to wait for 1 month fine for reactivation or whatsoever. We want to upgrade! Or can I say that we want to give them more money. So why make us to wait so long. Ohya, actually we need to wait AT LEAST 1 month before the account can be activated. Means it might take more than 1 month. Wow, unbelievable.

Seriously, I feel as if I got conned. Sigh..

And now, I need to rely on snail speed of 54kbps dial-up. And of course it wont run at 54kbps, my current speed now is only 24kbps. Even tortoise already done crossing the road while me still loading my yahoo mail. My parent dont agree to sign up for P1Wimax as the subscription is based on 1-2 year contract. Any my mum seems not interested in getting Celcom broadband. I wish I got money now so I can just get it for myself T_T

With this speed, no need to dream making a blog post full with pictures. I even cant sign in my msn. Left alone youtube. No more Texas Hold'm Poker for now. And my cafe world will be abandoned for 1 month plus because I cant cook dishes for my restaurant.

Window shopping become much harder. I cant even view pei2 thread as there are too many pictures. I only can load 1 tab at 1 time instead of 10++ tabs when I window shopping using streamyx. My joy of online shopping is vanished by more than half.

My job haunnting of course become much more difficult too. Surfing jobstreet is damn slow, and I cant even use google map properly for directions purposes. Sometimes I need to ask my dar or frens to help me seeing the map.

Since I rely a lot on msn to get connected with my dear and others, I need to use ebuddy as substitution for my dead msn. And it keep disconnected everytime I try to load any website with heavy traffic. And the most annoying thing is, ebuddy has this arabic advertisement that keep refreshed whenever I tab out the chat box. Why I said the advertisement very annoying? Is because it has been implemented with some sort of music and I cant mute them! I feel like pulling my thin hair evertime the song play by itself. So the only way is to just mute my computer sound. Ish.

Now my second brother is back for holiday. That means I cant use this dial-up as much as I want too as he might use it for ipta scholarship application whatsoever. I just hope I still can find my time to get online since I need to alert on any job enlistment and keep checking my mail incase there is any interview call out. I got my own importance too, you know.

Ahh..this is so annoying. I still cannot accept that I need to wait for 1 month. Is this real? I wonder if it just some misunderstanding since its not my father who handling this new account but my relatives. Maybe my father had missed out something, thus the 1 month waiting time? I also not sure.

Sometimes I wish time goes slower but this time I wish time can go faster and faster. Sigh..

Review: Mandom Beauty Cleansing Express Eye Make Up Remover

2010-03-10T21:09:00.005+08:00

Price : Around RM22++ something from Watson
Size : 140ml

Available at other store like Jusco as well.

I was looking for a replacement of my Maybelline Make Up remover which almost finished that time as I accidentally spilled almost half bottle of it on the floor*ouch*. I decided to find other brand since the Maybelline wasnt really effective in removing my Volume cat eye mascara. After looking around, my eye caught on a new standee at Watson with Mandom Cleansing Express range product which I believed just been brought to Malaysia. I saw the eye make up remover and straight away love the packaging (I am sucky for cute packaging). However, since I never heard this brand before, I decided to put it on hold to search for some reviews.

And I found lots of good reviews about this make up remover so few days later I came back and straight grab this to the cashier.

First of all, I really love the printed details on the bottle as it quite cute and has the high quality feeling.

Isnt it pretty?

The bottle tip is like most of other make up remover out there. You need to pour this on cotton pad and start your erasing process.

The product consist of 2 layers of oil, so must shake it well before using.

So, is it work as what other people claims? For me, it works quite well on my eyeliner and eye shadow as I need only 1 - 2 rub before they vanished from my eye. However, I also found out that I still need to put some effort to remove my Maybelline Cat eye mascara. It kinda a bit disappointing as I was hoping to find something which can rub this easily from my lashes. I guess the mascara itself is the type that very hard to remove.

See how dirty is the cotton pad after single wipe.

My eyes was actually cleaned after that except for my eyelashes which still have traces of stubborn mascara.

Of course after that you need to clean your face thoroughly with cleanser.

Overall, I think this product is ok, and I can assure it work better than the Maybelline one. I might consider in repurchasing this, as the price is cheap for 140ml of product and it work except on my mascara. But I believed it will work well in removing other brand of mascara, so hopefully I already change my mascara by the time I repurchase this product.

My rating:
4 out of 5 star on my eyeshadow and eyeliner
3 out of 5 star on my Maybelline cat eye mascara.

Review: UCK-105 Geo Lens.

2010-03-09T21:11:00.008+08:00

This is actually my first circle lens which I bought around last year December. I was looking for black colored lens that enlarge the eye size but still look natural. Normal diameter of circle lens is 14mm, so when I bump into this that claimed to have the diameter of 14.7mm I straight away hooked by it and made an order straight away. I purchased this lens from purple-lens blogshop (see my side bar for the link) for RM28 per pair inclusive of postage (Please take note the price has been marked up to RM30 recently). As usual, all geo lens can be used till max one year but it is recommended to change it every 3 months or so especially for those who wearing it daily.

Here how the lens looks like on my finger.

The lens really enlarge the eye as what it claims. I love how it make my eyes larger but still look natural. However this lens may not suitable for those who have very slity eye or small eye as it might cover most of the white area (sclera) of your eye. I've seen a photo of a girl having a small eye wearing this, and it looks very weird. The lens covered almost of her eye even she actually opening her eyes big in the picture.

Anyway, here are my pictures wearing the lens.

With and without lens (flash)

With and without lens (no flash)

Camwhored session with contact lens

Ok, I know you want to puke already.

Overall I really love love love this lens. Its comfortable, its enlarging yet looks natural. I experienced a bit of dryness after few hours of wearing it but thats normal when you wearing contact lens, which I cant bother it much. There are lots of other brand out there so I would like to try others after this already worn out. So I might repurchase this incase I cant find any better brand.

Rating : 4 out of 5 lippies
I dont like when it make my eye dry, thus 1 mark deduction.

Yay!

2010-03-08T20:31:00.003+08:00

Today I got 2 parcels from Babyangel83 and D-mask. Happy happy happy!! Now left 3 more in waiting list. The 1st one is my first purchase with Babyangel, I choosed normal postage and it still havent reach in my hand after 2 weeks, even my 2nd purchase from her already here, damn. One from ebay Hong Kong which going to turn 2 weeks soon and the last one scheduled to be posted by the seller this week from drugstore.com spree.

Wohoo.. shopping really can make me happy.. especially at this time when my heart is so fragile as if waiting to be cracked because of certain things, thanks to someone.

Since most of my item already in my hands, Im going to post some hauling entry soon. I really splurged a lot (a lot in terms of tight budget) last month and infact I already bought some stuff as soon as this month started. My wallet really is crying for help right now T_T

My wish for my dear..

2010-03-08T20:03:00.003+08:00

I wish that you could call me often..
I wish that you could sms me everyday..
I wish you chat with me everytime you online. Real chat, not just one two short word..
I wish you could spend your time to meet me..
I wish you would buy me a teddy bear, so I can hug it as if Im hugging you..
I wish I owned something that was belong to you, so I can keep it as my lucky charm..
I wish you give me roses, do you know no one give me any flowers before?
I wish you could reply my sms immediately, but its ok if you dont have the credits.
I wish you could sing for me, like what you did to other people before..
I wish you could be more sensitive to my feelings. You know I am quite fragile..
I wish you not always moody, because everytime you did, you actually hurt me too..
I wish that you tell me earlier incase you are busy instead of make me waiting for hours just because you said you will be back or be right back.
I wish you could give me a smooch everytime we start a conversation.
I wish you can say goodnight everytime you want to go to your slumberland..
I wish when you said that you love me, it means that you really mean it, and prove it..
I wish you could pamper me everytime I need you, no need to pamper me with money, I just need your love and attention, that will do..

and most of all I really really wish that you love me more than I did.. I remember you said long time ago that one day you might love me more than I love do.. I still wait for that day..

Bakso anyone?

2010-03-07T03:23:00.004+08:00

Last 2 days, I went to pasar malam near my house area with my bro. After getting everyones food, as usual Im the last one who still undecided on what to eat. Slow decision maker!! Even when choosing food!

So I walked till the end of the pasar malam till the last seller selling chicken rice and noodles. My eyes caught on the bakso which was one of the menu list. I know bakso is an Indonesian food, but then I never tried it. So I asked the seller, what it looks like. She answered "Mihun atau mee sup campur bebola daging". I was like, wow, got meatballs? And at the same time my mind came across Pizza hut meatballs. lol. So without hesitating, I ordered one with mihun. The seller asked me whether I want it to be hot, and without thinking I said yes. Ironically, Im actually not someone who adores hot and spicy food so much =.=. After I paid RM2.50, we left for home.

Time to devour the bakso!

The picture, is it look tempting? It look scary actually. Guess what is the brownish thingy? Its grinned cili api mixed with the noodle. Woah, I was hoping it wont cook my tongue >.< And the meatballs, nah..dont expect it will taste like pizza hut meatballs.

After one slurp.

Ffffffffff..... damn spicy!

Still try to hold my burning mouth, but at the end I only managed to stuffed all the meatballs in my stomach, and lots of soup, no..its chilli soup, and mihun remain unfinished. Wasted! But I really cannot take it anymore since it too hot till I cant merely taste anything with my tongue, really! And my lips was swollen and red as if I wear a lip tint or something =.=

So thats my first experience of eating bakso, hottest noodle I ever taste. And sorry I wont buy this again as it almost cooked my belly, lol.

2010-03-05T18:11:00.002+08:00

I take back my word.

All I want to say is I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you~

I love you dear =)

Hand Sanitizer

2010-03-05T05:05:00.000+08:00

Can I make a short reviews about hand sanitizers? Yes , of course I can. Its my blog anyway.

Hands sanitizer started to become popular since the H1N1 break out. But I started to buy hand sanitizers not because of the pandemic, but since I began to wear contact lens few months ago. You know, good care of hand hygiene is a must when handling contact lens since we going to poke the thing on our precious eyes and we use our bare hands to do the job. Besides its quite convenient incase you need to use an ATM machine that someone had put mucous on it (if you watched H1N1 advertisement in RapidKL bus before, you'll know what I mean) and you cant find any water source to clean your hand, thats when your handy hand sanitizer came to the rescue since this small bottle of gel claims that they can killed 99.99% of germ on our hand. Wow, isnt that cool?

So far Im using my 3rd bottle of my hand sanitizer and I buy different brand each time since there are lots of brand in the market nowadays. The price is kinda cheap too, range from RM2++ -RM5.
My very first bottle was from Eskulin brand which cost me less than RM3. It actually meant for kids hand but I still bought it anyway due to the cute disney bottle and the light fruity sweet scent. It has blue speck in the gel which I really enjoy crush it on my hand..*childish*. When apply on hand, it will give slightly cool sensation (which I love) before it fully absorbed by the skin. I use it almost everyday even my hands not particularly dirty, and this bottle ends in not time.

My 2nd bottle was from Dettol. I chose the one with aloe over the original one since the original is more to medicated smell. Unlike the fruity scent of eskulin, this, of course give the light smell of aloe and it never leave any cooling sensation upon application. The price is more expensive compare to other brand..well its Dettol, so what you can expect.

And finally, my current bottle is from Ginvera brand. Now, this hand sanitizer smells like perfume which I never realized before purchasing it. It is soo heavy scented till to the point that I can smell this right away when I step into my room while my sister was using this, and infact at first I thought someone is wearing perfume before I saw my sis holding the hand sanitizer bottle. It feel a bit sticky upon application which I suspect due to high fragrance content. The smell can even make me sneeze (my nose kinda allergic with heavy scented perfume). I dont feel comfortable at all when using this before putting on my lens because it feels like I sprayed my hand with perfume and having perfume spec on your eyes never sound like a good thing. I guess I'll getting other brand soon for my lens purposes, and for Ginvera, Im not going to repurchase once this bottle comes to and end. I want something to clean my hands, not a perfume.

I do recommend people out there especially girls who love to touch up their make up to have a hand sanitizer in your handbag. Well..the world out there is so dirty especially when we have soo many uncivilized people that love to litter here and there in our country. Who knows if you actually had touched a shit trace somewhere before you patting your face for make up touch up. Ew..that is so gross right?

Rant rant rant

2010-03-04T21:09:00.003+08:00

From now, Im going to concentrate on finding my part time job. I dont want to wait anymore. I already delay it for a month just for a stupid reason that I dont know when its going to happen, and now I dont want to care. Im going to stop neglecting myself just for the sake of people around me. I want to get a job as fast as possible, get the money, shopping, saving and if God willing me, Im going to step into student world again, try my very best to score. Graduate, find a permanent job. Make a lot of good money, be somebody and marry a good man.

Oh God please give me enough time to achieve all those. I still got lots of things to do. I really hope 2012 is just a pure Mayan myth. I still have lots of dream..

Sigh...

2010-03-04T00:41:00.002+08:00

It's almost 50 hours ago since my boy last online. The last short sms that I received from him yesterday was he's been busy with his school work. And today we never contact at all. It make me to think too much again till the extent that Im thinking whether if he is seeing someone else. I know I am bad by being over-suspicious.

How I wish if he could spend a minute or two just to contact me and telling me hows he doing or hows Im doing even in his busiest day. I didnt ask much, I just need a couple of words to know that he do care for me. I cant see him since we live far from each other so internet and telephone is the major way for us to stay connected.

But then, he is the type of non-romantic guy who doesnt mind if he didnt talk to me for days, while at my site, 2 days is long enough for me to go nuts. Sometimes I do feel like I am an abandoned gf. Sometimes I feel like Im not really in relationship. Yesterday someone asking me whether I am attached. I was actually puzzled for minutes before giving the yes answer. I was puzzled whether Im single or taken... Isnt it pathetic?

Honestly I dont have much confidence towards this relationship that was actually formed from online friendship. I know it still young, just few months old. We even havent have our official date together. Yes, Im not joking. The first plan was ruined by my tight scheduled before, and once Im free, it his turn to become a busy bee. Sigh.. I wonder how long this will continue. This relationship wont complete as long as no official date. Little did he know that I already put a lot of effort just to make sure our first date is a memorable one. I splurge on new clothes, I learn the proper way doing make up. I bought a pair of lens even the prescription wasnt right. I splurge on skin care product to maintain my complexion, and among the biggest thing that I did was delaying my tempo job haunting just to give him freedom to choose any day that he like for tha date. How stupid.

Sometimes I do feel whether this is another bullshit online relationship. I had involved in this bullshit back then with someone else, and it really full of shit. I just hope this wont become the 2nd shit in my life. I had enough with the first one.

I even had this thought whether I am onli his online companion, nothing more than that, but he said to me that I am his real life and online. Both. I try to trust him. I just hope he doesnt play with his word. Thats all.

Despite of his ignorance when he is busy or in bad mood, I can say he can be a sweet guy at times, which make me fall in love for 2nd and 3rd and so on. Hopefully he doesnt faking it.

A very high trust is needed for me to hold on. Well.. if he dont love me, he can just let go of my hand. I didnt have any advantage to be given to him. Im not pretty, Im fat, Im not rich, I havent got my degree, Im not chinese, overall I dont have a great package as his gal. But then he never do that and he still said the holy 3 words "I love you" to me. And again, I hope he really mean it.

I can see that Im starting to crapping again. Those crap indicates how Im in non-stable emotion now. I better stop.

I hope tomorrow will be a better day. Yeah I know this post is full of hopes...oh well

Whatever..

I won RM10K

2010-03-03T16:27:00.003+08:00

While I was having my own hard time surfing net looking for any temporary job, suddenly my phone ringing for coming sms. I seldom received sms during day so I grab the phone wishing that it is not those annoying advertisement sms that always make me slamming the phone on the bed (not floor). So its from unknown number and this message pop up.

Wow, Im broke now and now I won RM10K, is this what I should call a good luck?

But..wait, I never drink a can of Kacip Fatimah or a sachet of Ali Cafe. So how on earth all of sudden they want to give me this freaking huge ammount of RM10k?

Nah, even if I drink gallons of Ali Cafe, I wont fall for this bullshit scam. I heard from several forum discussion that they will ask the winners to buy something before they can take the money. Isnt it stupid?

I wonder how these no lifers get my number from. I bet someone selling my information when I was giving my contact number here and there for job applications.

Anyway, here is the number of the person who send me the sms and the number that he asked me to contact:

SMS from : 014-552 8857
contact number: 014-867 7192

Feel free to spam those number or contact them what so ever, scammer.

Is it wrong to shop online?

2010-03-03T13:44:00.004+08:00

Today another parcel arrived infront of my step door. Its actually the 2nd parcel within this week. As my house is small enough and it is necessary to passby the master bedroom (door always opened) before I can reach mine, there is no way to hide the big parcels that Im holding at my back from my mum, no matter how fast I run, unless I can change myself to invisible woman or walk through the wall like most Korean ghost can do.

As expected, my mum who already watch from her bed called me, asking me to bring along the stuff.

(take note my mum voice tone was in nagging mode while me in "biasa" polite mode, no quarrels)
mum : Why you always buying stuff (via online)? Yesterday already got one parcel, now got
another.
me : Yea but its not those cd that Im buying now. This is skincare product.
mum : Oh, but why you want so many make up stuff?
me : No no, these arent make up stuff, they're skincare product to take care of the skin.
mum : For what? Your skin got that bad? And you seems so rich now.
me : No la..not rich, it just the stuff kinda cheap. (of course I never told the price, everything
more than RM10 is expensive for her)
mum : If you got skin disease then you know.
me : Hahahaha...... (walk to my room)

Back then when I was buying CDs, girly stuff, clothes, she said to me " why you buying all these thing, its a waste, unless if you buying skincare product then its not wrong." She even took the money sucker SKII product as example for me to splurge on skin care product.

And now, when I really start to splurge on skin care product, she still got things to complain.

Duhh..parent. Sometimes its hard to satisfy then with other thing that is non-study related.

I got a feeling she was actually against me buying stuff online because she seldom complain for the stuff I buy from live store. Dont you know sometimes we can get a lot cheaper online even we have to pay shipping fee? And not all product can be bought from live shops, and sometimes those counter product are not so effective despite of their damn high price tag and lots of tv commercials.

I have bought CD, skin care product, make up stuff, bags, gadget and even food online. It sucha pleasent experience as long as you have the cash. The only things that I wont dare to buy online is clothes and shoes mainly because of size concern and I wear size 8 and above shoes.

Well whatever, I really love online shopping and clicking the "add cart" button sending order confirmation mail really can make me happy. What a satisfaction.. ahh

As much as my mum hate me online shopping, I wonder why she never complain about my brother buying replica sword online which at least cost around RM150 per sword. And he already bought four swords. But still she never nag about it. While I can be nagged by both my mum and dad for days just for a bottle of RM30 moisturizers.

Not fair!!

Hmm, I got another 2 pending parcels waiting to be sent and another pos express parcel. Oops.
Im going to get a free lecture thorough this month I guess.

How I wish I can hire a personal postman so he can deliver the stuff to my house when my parent is outside the house. Or some sort of Doraemon gadget so the stuff can just pop out in my room once I bought it. I no it aint gonna happen but only in my dream.

Happy 54th Birthday to my mum!

2010-03-02T03:04:00.005+08:00

Happy birthday mother! 1st March arrived again and today my mother turns 54. Hmm, seems like the number "1" love my family. My mum is 1/3 while me and my bro are 1/10, and my dad is 6/1. My two "relative" (wads with the bracket? only some people know) are on 11/11 and 1/9. Oh, and did I mentioned someone close to me is on 1/x too? >_< We didnt really make any celebration yet since my father was kinda busy and one of my bro isnt here, which delay the celebration. However, I tried to make my first cake for my mother birthday. Due to shortage of some ingredients, I choose to make caramel pudding sponge cake simply because we got all ingredients at home. But the bad news is the preparation is kinda tricky for a beginner like me and the cake end up not as perfect as I thought. Infact the sponge cake part is quite a failure T_T.

Before in oven

When its done (after cooling period), only pudding can be seen while the cake failed to raise at bottom T_T

And it took a little bit time and my mother already in to bed. Arghh.. So I guess she will eat it tomorrow.

Why it took so long? Actually I can serve it before my mum go to sleep but my father who always choose wrong timing in doing something give me a nice fire stoning random lecture when I was checking the cake whether its read to be served. He totally kills my mood. I was spending many hours and effort preparing and all of sudden he got me into a random nagging serious talk. It make me feel a bit upset and I end up staying at my room after that with low mood so thats explain why I cant serve it immediately.

But anyway, happy birthday mother. I havent buy the present yet. I actually wanted to buy this recipe book that was produced by a local princess as the birthday gift which will cost me hundred bucks. But seems like I cant find it in nearest bookstore here, I guess I need to dig up big MPH for this. So sorry for the late present >.<

Anyway, I should sleep now because I need to get up early tomorrow, because of this:

Damn, stupid door bell run out of battery at the wrong time. Now because of it, I need to go through the hassle of "nicely planned" town of Seri Kembangan just to get to their post office which is located strategically on the middle of traffic crowd with no enaugh parking space. Shit. And its quite far from my house too. Sigh.. The postman sure very happy now as this time I cant blame him for my stupid bell door. (My name is known among some pos malaysia folks at Seri Kembangan kaunter serahan post office since I always call them complaining and nagging about my delayed parcel and bla bla bla.)

Maybe I should stop by Jusco after that so I can release my stress there by window shopping. Yay.

Ok, enough. Good night.

OOS again!!

2010-03-01T03:50:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I got a feeling that God actually want me to learn how to make fast decision.

Well, I can make fast decision at other important thing but not at all at shopping. Seriously I can think about certain stuff that I was eyeing for 1 week before decide to buy it or not. I love to take my own sweet time to find as much reviews as possible, comparing prices, opinions and much more aspect for the stuff that I planned to splurge on. And when Im done with that part and feel sure that I want it, I will come back to the shop...and just to find out that its already out of stock aka OOS! Huaaa~ how heartache after such a long time taken just to decide and when we want it, its gone! And this actually happened to me for few times thorough last 2 months and recently was few minutes ago as I never learnt my lesson T_T

OOS number 1, I was eyeing on few circle lenses. It took me weeks to look around and finally when I want to place the order, one of my eye prescription was oos. And it oos everywhere, which end up me opted for lower power because I was about to use this urgently for an important event (which was delay after that. Pfft!!).

OOS number 2, I saw this cell roller quite long time ago but never buy it because I think I dont need it urgently. So when I bought my Chilli Balo gel, I finally decided to buy the roller together but again, it OOS, everywhere in LYN. I was end up getting one at ebay with extra price and when I got it in my hand, the cell roller brand is different than what it advertise (Japan brand ====> China brand) which is suck.

OOS number 3, I wanted to get this "thing" as a gift to someone. I saw several LYN seller do selling this but again I didnt buy it immediately. And it was OOS when I already made up my mind. Even the most expensive among the sellers still OOS. I search everywhere, LYN, JbTalks, cutety, pretty, dunno wad other shop already, all OOS. I cant even find the exact thing when doing live shopping in Times Square. Gosh. End up, I delay the gift it to birthday instead. Hope it already restock by then =.=

OOS number 4, saw this cute Ayupan (Ayumi figurine) on AHS. Interested but then feel it a little bit expensive. Few days after that I still keep thinking of it and when I came back its already taken. T_T

OOS number 5, saw a sleeping pack at pei2 thread. And AGAINNN I never buy immediately. The moment I ask pei2, it already OOS. Lucky Babyangel still have it with cheaper price so I guess thats a good OOS moment.

OOS number 6, wanted to buy a bunch of skincare product for mask. I saw this nano fine towel and plan to get it since it might help cleaning the mask residue in deep pores. But before that I took a very long sweet time just to do my own research on the stuff ingredient since I think these item wont OOS so fast Finally a decision made (which is not much differ with my initial plan). Wanted to place the order from Renee shop but the towel is OOS =_='''. I was thinking to purchase from her so I can get 15% discount for my next purchase. And cutetygirl got no stock for the towel too. So I guess I will stick back to pei2 and this time I dont want to wait! I had enaugh with all my OOS item.

Lesson learnt. Hopefully I dont have more OOS item as Im going to get back to shop for some items that I already watching...1 week ago >_< .

Review: Shu Uemura Eyelash Curler + Maybelline Cat's Eye Mascara

2010-02-25T21:24:00.008+08:00

Everything seems a bit better now so..
Time to back for some review.

I'll go for my eye lash curler first. I bet most girl who into make up stuff will know this. The highly raved eyelash curler that have been mention countlessly in many beauty site and magazines. This is claimed as among the most effective eyelash curler around by many make up artist.

Taken from Sephora:
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Perfectly measured and finely balanced, the new shu uemura Eyelash Curler is designed to ensure superior functionality and performance. The upgraded silicone pad in a new "mushroom" shape provides a protective, stay-put edge for improved safety and optimum curl. The new, patented hinge is specifically engineered to apply the perfect amount of pressure on eyelashes. The calculated shape, size of frame length and ergonomic handles ensure stability and control, while the curved angle suits all eye shapes.
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The retail price? USD19 from US retail online shop or RM55~RM60 from local Shu uemura kiosk, and I know it might sound a bit too much for just an eyelash curler. There is lots of people out there who willing to purchase this with this hefty price and even repurchase it once it is worn out. But I know Im not. Hey! RM60! You kidding me? Im not even working and with that ammount of money, I can splurge on delicious food or pamper myself with other cheaper beauty stuff. I can even bought one album of my favorite j-pop cd. So, RM60 for just a curler is a no no for me which I decided to search for a cheaper deal.

Some LYN seller are selling this for only RM40++ but, nah.. I want to get it for cheaper price so there you go..ebay shopping. Bidding can start from USD0.99 but of course it is impossible to win at such price. If you are lucky, you might won at USD5 which is seldom happened. After have been outbid for at least 6 times, finally I won this at USD7, including registered shipping from Hong Kong which is a steal. And if you worry about this item being authentic or not, I do think it is original. In fact I never heard any complain so far from people who bought from ebay saying it is fake what so ever. I also read somewhere that this curler actually can be bought at low price in Hong Kong and Japan.

So hows the result on me?

I got an average set of thin eyelash with average length. I always bought cheap curler from local drugstore before and I always hate the L shape as the result. With this curler, I can say that the result is satisfying and it easier to use this compare to other lash curler. I believe it might work better for people with long lashes.

This is how my bare eyelash before curling.
The after

It is recommended that the eyelash is coated with mascara after curling to avoid any damage. So Im using my Maybelline Cat's eye mascara as this is my only mascara at the moment. Honestly I hate this mascara. It do volume but not so much on lengthening. It clumps a lot and very hard to remove. The only good thing is I can guarantee that this mascara wont smudge at all. I bought this after the SA told me that it is on sale, and without thinking much I grab it and now i regret.

Anyway, this is how it look like with mascara.

before and after

Overall I love the curler. Ohya, it came with another extra rubber pad as the replacement once the existing one is worn out. Take note that Shu uemura never sell the pad separately you might need to repurchase whole curler once both pad already worn out and according to them it is recommended to replace the curler after few months of usage. But I guess this will stay with me for year since I seldom wear make up. If I need to repurchase again, it would be from ebay again. Anyway I heard elf 1 dolar eyelash curler can deliver the same result as this. Maybe I should try that too next time since 1 dolar is really a steal.

And for the mascara. I wont ever repurchase again. I just hate the clumps. You really need a lash brush if you want to use this. It clumps everywhere for me. However I still give you some face as you never smudge me at all.

I still give u face for not smudging.

Bla bla bla..

2010-02-21T18:54:00.009+08:00

Usual place Jusco Equine park, just to buy some hostel stuff for my bro. And since nobody want to follow, I just shop alone...BORINGGG~~~ Then my eyes lingering around couples clinging hand, I was like..ahhhh am I single or wad?? I want to be like that too T__T Nvm..enuf about the caveman.

Anyway, I hate going out without treating myself with something. So I just bought these:

New CLEO mag and face wrap or whatever it calls. Yeah, I really need that face wrap. All this while I only wear this weird looking headband to hold my hair when cleaning my face, which is this:
Im not kidding okay~ In fact I got another one with white ears but I misplaced it somewhere in my room.

Any goodies with CLEO? Nah..not much..
Just some soap sample and coupons that only can be claimed at selected counters, bleh!!

CLEO is my must buy mag..Well, not because of those fashion stuff that mostly I cant afford to buy, but mainly because of those life related discussion which is interesting to read in my opinion. So whats in CLEO this month?

Hope I dun have any worst date

Test yourself question

Calorie talk

I need this. I think my bedroom is like a store room now.

Good timing. I got this syndrome towards my dear too.

Him say. One of my fav section

Great, at least I got a new mag to keep myself busy during this "caving" season, right?

Smile please~ be happy!

The caveman

2010-02-21T12:16:00.006+08:00

Ok, I know I was stupid for taking sleeping pills just to sleep and try to forgot everything so Im going to stop it now. Its not worth incase it leads me to cancer or such..really!!

So, bye pills..
I read an article about "Why Men Go Into Their Caves". Somehow it resembles my boy situation a lot. Once he enter his cave, no talk please. If you trying to put dinamites into his cave, you might blow yourself. So I guess spamming him with so emo emo sms is a big mistake, so Im going to cut it off too.

DONT EVER DO THIS TO A CAVEMAN!!

As much as Im ready to share all my problems with him, I guess he not going to do that when it comes to his problem. The article mention he MIGHT share the problem once he out from the cave. So I guess thats why my dear answer me with "I WILL" when I asked him to tell his problem, means he will share but not now.

What Im going to do now? Just stay quiet as long as he needs it and do my own stuff to keep me busy. Hey, I actually feel much after writing this...hopefully.

Im not playing with my words

2010-02-21T00:34:00.003+08:00

When I said to you Im depressed, means Im really depressed. If I told you Im eating sleeping pills, means I really eat those pills, in fact Im actually sick right now because I started loose my appetite and skip meals. When I said I need to talk, means I really need to talk. When I say I miss you, means I really miss you. Everytime I said I love you means I really love you. This 3 words I strictly only said for people that I got my heart on.

Dear, I want you to know that I never joke with my words, I never play with those word just to grab your attention. I really mean it. It hurt me when you never respond for all that I said. It puzzled me when you asked me to stop asking so much question. I asked with my reasons. I asked cos of ur moody attitude that leads you to your ignorance. It hurt me when you signing out without telling me as if Im invisible. It hurt me a lot. Honestly speaking I never feel as hurt as this before. Sometimes I really hope if you read all this, because I know you wont listen to this crap when you are inside your own cave.

My only strength for you is when you still say yes answering do-you-love-me questions. I do really hope u really mean it. And if you dont need my companion anymore in your life, just tell me nicely. I know it will hurt me deeply but playing hide and seek will hurt me as deep as well.

I dont know how many more should I cry. My eyes already swollen right now and my head is dizzy. I pity myself for having to go through all this shity stuff in relationship. My previous was shitty enaugh, so I want this time to be sweet. I guess I already tried my best.

I envy my friends who got a lovey dovey bf. You girls are lucky. While mine is.. you got your own aura which I cant explain. But I just hope you dont have pms everyweek and sometimes everyday. Im tired to deal with it. Please do care my feelings.

I shall stop soon cos Im seriously dizzy now. I ate some pills to put me in sleep, so I guess thats the reason.

And for my dearest Jaycee, you are old enough to think wad have you done to this weak girl here. You admit your mistake, but only admit isnt enaugh, it should came with an action to cure everything, not just keep repeating the same thing. Dont expect me to swallow all the shit u give me. Maybe I should give you some break to think. You cant continuously abusing me like this.

Last but not least, I still love you regardless of all things that you done to me. I know people might called me stupid, but wadever, maybe I am..

Till then, goodnight.

Love hurts

2010-02-20T13:19:00.004+08:00

I dont know what else is wrong right now. Having someone who always having mood swings all the time isnt a nice thing. Everytime his mood swing, my mood is swinging 360 degree too. And again my sensitive brain will working all out digging answer. Even he said Im just thinking too much, I still cant help it. I feel so insecure. Im afraid if Im still his problem even he said it is not. I hate when he gives me silent treatment. I scared of loosing him. I love him so much, much much more than my ex or "ex" wadever. I need him. He is so unpredictable. One day he is cute, the next day his attitude can be as ugly as hell.

I dont know maybe Im obsessed but I do think its normal for me to rant like this. I feel so envy seeing pictures of some of my friend with their love ones on V days, while I dont have any cos me and him dont have the dates. I even already prepared some homemade gift and now it just waiting to rotten inside the jar. Isnt it pathetic?

I wish you dont always bad mood. I wish you share your problem. Or at least you should convinced me that we both are ok, so I can stop thinking too much. I hope you stop being so ignorant everytime you living inside your cave. Please, I need some attention.

I feel my current status now is like a leaf attached to a big tree, trying to hold as tight as I can. But I might let go if there is a big wind coming and just go with the wind.

I dont wan to let go. I love my tree. I have done so much thing for the tree. Spare as much oxygen as it need with my limited chlorophyll.

Sigh.. I feel Im going to burst into tears again. I cant believe I can love someone that sometimes can be such a jerk. I wish we could read each others mind. Seriously, I am emotionally abused.

I believe I deserve better, so dear please treat me better. Give me some sugar. You see, even cats know how to be romantic!

credits to Matsuri Hino for cat pics

See?? *Sigh x 1000 *

p/s: I wish I got someone who can drag me out somewhere. I need some fresh air.

When an advice isnt necessary right

2010-02-15T21:53:00.005+08:00

I got an overprotective parent, especially my mum. They observe most of my activity, and control it. They will shoot me with a lot of question everytime I want to go out and they will ask what stuff I bought everytime there is parcel come to the house. My mum also dont like any idea like me going somewhere with my friend, leave alone staying overnight at other place. She will throw sets of question and a lot of negative consequences if me going out, like wad if I got into accident, wad if I got cheated, wad if this wad if that. Ok, I understand its for my own good, so Im kinda fine with it. While my dad, he will start being noisy when it comes to money. Bills is his main concern and sometimes he blame it with computer and laptop, even I believe majority of the electricity bills came from the 29 inch and big lcd tv in living room and masterbedroom which are turned on most of the time when my parent are awake. He even complaining if my hp bills reached RM30. But whatever, it his money so I guess he can complain wadever he want. They also control my social life like with who I befriend with. I admit this sometimes affect some of my past relationship with friends, and I know I might unintentionally hurt some of them thus destroyed the friendship which I do regret at times. About my hobby and interest, most of them received negative feedback from my parent. I used to be cute stuff sucky, they said it waste of money. True and I gradually stop. I used to be a hardcore online gamer, they said it waste of time and not good. Yeah, really true and I already quit those games already. I love to self karaoke, my mum said it noisy and its a useless thing. Ok fine, now I only sing once in a while with my room's door and window shut. I love to buy cd from Japan online and goodies from certain singer as collection. They said it so waste of money and time collecting stuff like this. Ok, I less buying now and even I did I try to make it as secret as possible.

However, my patience still have some limits and it started to irked me up when they complaining to all the things that Im doing. Nowadays, Im so into beauty stuff to maintain or repair my skin and start to put some make up when go out. They do complain seeing parcel come once in a while into my doorstep. Im still fine with it. But then when today my mum complain about me put makeup on and give me this harsh statement "u wear make up, u think u so pretty? you look old and make people cant recognized you", I feel a bit hurt especially by the first statement as it almost killing my confidence that I built by make up. I know Im not pretty but I know my appearance look better with some light make up. I dont know if it make me look old or what but I noticed less people call me "akak" during shopping or wadever. (damn I always hate those auntie in stalls or shop call me akak when they obviously is in their 30s, can you just call me cik or miss like most chinese promoter did?) People cant recognize me? Maybe I look different just because recently I start to wear contact lense after hiding my eyes behind glasses for the pass 15 years. Seriously, is it wrong for non-good looking like me to wear make up? Is it wrong to improve my shabby appearance? Why you must give me that blunt statement just because you are not happy with most of things that Im doing. Please, I need my own space for my stuff.

Im sorry mum, this time I cant swallow that "advice" of yours. I love you but I do hope you can be more positive and supportive towards me rather than being negative all the time. I really need it. I know I might not right all the time but it doesnt mean that Im wrong all the time while you are the one who always right.

Funny home waxing video

2010-02-15T01:25:00.003+08:00

I was looking for epistick (tools for removing facial hair) videos in youtube and bumped into this video. Its not about epistick but its about hair waxing. This girl was trying a new waxing product that she bought from Australia and the result is... WOW. The video really cracked me up and I was burst into laugh even my sis was sleeping..sorry but I just cant help it. Lol.

Credits for the video owner for this hilarious video and I hope you dont mind Im sharing it here =)
Hope you all can enjoy this video too >_<

Review: Shahnaz Hussain Kajal Eyeliner

2010-02-09T12:42:00.006+08:00

I was searching for a good but cheap eyeliner as a replacement for my Silkygirl auto pencil eyeliner which is suck as it keeps breaking. So finally I came across this on LYN.

The reviews from others were quite good, same goes for the reviews from MUA. Even Lolipop26, one of famous youtube makeup guru review also made a video about this thing and gives it a good rate. I also love the reviews about it is good for people who like to do tightline.

So, what about my review?
I bought this from ebay India since the price is cheaper compared to LYN, and they used registered mail to ship the item which is quite good. It came with a cheap looking black stick with a small mirror.

It looks like lipstick packaging. A "cone" will appear after I twisted it out. The cone texture is creamy black.

Its quite tricky to wear this actually! The "original" way from middle eastern is by put it in the inner corner of the eye, close your eye and glide it between your tightline and water line. It feels like Im poking my precious eye (seriously).A good hand control is necessary!

OUCH!! Nah..its not painful. Just feel uncomfortable. Poking our eye is never been comfortable right?

1st layer

2nd layer. I know my make up skill suck.

I used normal drawing slowly method for the right eye.

Tada!!
(Ohya, I never wear any base wadsoever for both eye. Its completely bare face!)

It creates a smudgy effect which is very good for those who like smokey eye.

The downside? It smudge a LOT after awhile. I keep worrying whether I already become a panda when wearing this and always want to check my eye which is quite annoying. Ish!

Without any base or "supporter", it will smudge in no time. Yucks~

However, the smudging problem can me minimized by taping some loose powder on the area or layer it with black eyeshadow or other black gel eyeliner at the outer rim of the eye.

Overall, this might be a good product but smudging too easily is a bit turn off. It probably wont suit people with too oily face (especially eye area) people who always had watery eyes. Some people claims that it wont smudge even they need to wet their eye as contact lens user, so I guess it depends on person.

I'll just rate this 2/5. I wish it doesnt smudged easily.

Lousy seller

2010-02-07T23:45:00.002+08:00

Im very pissed off with this seller. Really ruined my plan. My story started when I was searching for "this thing" which I need within a time frame, over the net. Actually, this item was still in stock around one week ago at one lyn seller, but I wasnt intend to buy it back then. So when finally, I decided to buy it, its already out of stock, and I late only by one day T_T.. So, nvm, I tried to get it from other seller. Saw it and it doesnt mark as oos item, but when I asked the seller, she also said this item out of stock. Ok, fine even a bit dissapointed.

So after further searching at LYN brings no avail, I started to search from other source, including this famous chinese forum called jbtalk. I use google translate to explore and finally find the item and it without out of stock mark. So with my friend, Nanako aka middlewoman help me as translator, the seller told us that she got stock for that item, even its not the exact color that I want.Since the color is similar, so Im fine with it and told the seller that I want it, but one shit thing happen so we asked the seller if we can make the payment on monday, but incase she want immediate payment, I will just straight pay for it. No respond at all from seller. The next day, we leave the message again that we want to pay for the item already, plus request the total ammount to double confirm before make payment (since she never did give us any total price confirmation wadsoever) but then still no reply from this seller. And finally on the next day, she replied us telling that the thing already out of stock, only left color that I dont want. I was so bloody dissapointed and Nanako query her how come suddenly no stock, since we already said want to purchase. And that lousy seller blame us saying why so late pay. Hello?? We already said that we want to buy this and was waiting for her snail respond about the payment, and now she blame us for her own mistake?? How can we just straight sent the payment without her confirm all total price plus account number. I know she got put her acc number on the front page but some seller didnt update their page thats why confirmation is necessary right? Every other seller will give confirmation to their customer before paying. Its fine if she just say sorry about her slow respond or inaccurate information wadsoever but blaming us for "late payment" is unacceptable, so Nanako shoot her back, and she goes silent after that. Its indeed her mistake. And because of her, now I need to search for the item all over again T_T.

Ish, hope I wont meet this kind of seller again. Argggh!!

Yay~ my dad is back

2010-02-06T00:37:00.004+08:00

So my dad finally back from Hong Kong as he promised, harmless. Lol. I guess I really got over-thinking about those bad guys wadsoever. Hahaha.. He didnt brought any gift, but he brought a box of mini lokum. And its really sweet ~_~ Ahh..Im sucky at mandarin orange.

This box going to get empty in few days.

RUILONG HANG, L size (but it looks like S to me)

Wow, it looks like golden lokum here.

Looks ordinary but Im glad it taste sooo sweet.

Anyway, my mum found back her black sunglasses, so yay~ I no need to buy new one. Save my 20 bucks. Great.

Oopps, Im being offtopic, but who cares since this is my blog? =P

January Haul

2010-02-05T16:32:00.005+08:00

I know now is already February, but wadever. These are the stuff that I bought in January. I'll make reviews about them later.

1. Maybelline Lasting Drama Gel Eyeliner

2. Shahnaz Hussain Kohl Kajal

3. Mandom Beauty Cleansing Express Eye Makeup Remover

4. Yili Balo Chilli Slimming Gel and leg wrap

5. Skinfood Aloe BB cream sample pack

6. Barbie Super Nudy in GREEN

7. Cell Roller

All of them are beauty products @_@..
Ok. I admit I bought all this not because only I want to improve my appearance, but also is because I want to pleased you (*refering to someone*) despite of my tight financial crisis. So please do appreciate me more -_-.

Thats all, reviews come later =)

Friday

2010-02-05T01:03:00.003+08:00

Its Friday today. Hopefully my dad will be back from Hong Kong like what he told us before he left. Ish, its really worrying seeing him going to Kowloon alone with that unknown guy. Seriously. So many bad people in this world. Who knows if that guy is one of them. Last night I heard news about some Iranian got caught in airport because of bringing drugs inside backpack. That reminds me about some unlucky Malaysian who now stuck on jail in overseas because of being trap by Iranian people. Thinking about it freaked me out.

Hope my dad will be back safely. Argh..too many things to worry about. Dad, study, money, boyfriend, fats (lol). I will get crazy soon =_=''

I dun wan to cry again..

2010-02-04T23:26:00.003+08:00

It has been a gloomy day for me recently. Everytime I feel like Im all alone, my tears start wanting to drop. Just recently I was crying while in shower. No. Edit, I cried again before you off to sleep. I dont know why I can become so weak. I wish I can be stronger, so I wont collapse if anything come to worst. I hope it wont happen because Im really still not ready. Please.. I dont want to make something harmful to myself. Ah.. I start to over thinking again..

I hope temporary is really a temporary. You said its nothing, I trust you its nothing to do with me. I'll wait for you to return to yourself. I really miss you.

I love you dear and I always do.. Hope you will be back soon..

New application submited

2010-02-04T18:39:00.002+08:00

Today is the last day for Bachelor program application for public university. This time I only choose those course that I think I am capable of plus whatever that interest me. I dont want to just blindly choose like what I did last time causing me being ditched in Material Technology course and now Im wasting my precious six month just to apply for new course. Lesson learnt.

I hope the application will succeed. I dont care if I got into science unrelated course, as long as I got chance to to score the best and most importantly, with huge job scope. I dont want to end up being a low grade science graduate running whole Malaysia just to find a job with RM1k + salary. Thats what I called pathetic. (p/s: Im not refering this to anyone so please dont get offenced)

I hope everything goes well. I cant wait to study again, graduate and holding my very own money. Thats certainly a happiness.

Something that I need to worry..

2010-02-03T14:28:00.002+08:00

Today, my mum and bro said my dad will depart to Hong Kong with his "business partner" Fendi today for some work. I honestly dont really trust this Fendi guy. My dad always mention to me and family that he got some sort of project , I not sure land project or whatever but he said it is big. But Im still worry what if, if that Fendi just trap my dad to do something illegal and cause something bad happen to my dad? Somemore now he wan bring my dad go to Hong Kong. Anything can happen. I start to think so much again. I really hope nothing bad will happen..

New layout

2010-02-03T01:14:00.002+08:00

After using charcoal layout for quite a long time, I think it is time to change to a new face. Plus I got several complain from some people who reading my blog that my blog is hard to load. I assume it is because of the old layout, so here is the new one.

But before you all saying that I am a fan of Twilight, I would like to strictly state that I am NOT. This is only a temporary of having that huge twilight image as the headings since it already set in the xml code. I was only interested with the headings frame without the twiling image and the body. So what am I going to do is requesting someone who is pro in photoshop to create a new header for my blogs replacing those white vampires.

There are still a lot to edit, but since its already 1.20am and Im not in good mood, I think I'll just do it tomorrow or the next day. Till then, please do enjoy the vampires header while it still last~~

Am I thinking too much?

2010-02-03T00:00:00.003+08:00

Everytime he doing something that I dont like, my brain neurons will start to connect each other creating countless assumption to feed all my doubts that start to appear one by one. Whenever he get silent, I'll start thinking if he bored with me? Is he moody? Am I got do anything wrong? Whenever he put other girl's picture on his display message, I will start to get soo emo, even I know they were just a random picture found over internet. The worst is, whenever I never see him online thorough the day, like today. I will start to conclude that he actually going out. After that I will start thinking, with who he go out? Family? Friends? If friends, is it guy or a girl? Maybe its a girl? Is he having an affair with other girl? Am I got cheated? I smsed and never got any reply. Why? Am I disturbing him? Am I disturbing someone's date?? I start to think and think and trying to relate everything to the assumption, and eventually make myself become so moody. And now Im here keep looking at my phone and msn, waiting and waiting with hundreds of question appeared in my mind. I feel so sad seeing my silent phone and I feel so dissapointed seeing people in my msn signing in but it wasnt him.

Sometimes I pity him need to answer my set of stupid question. Dont get me wrong, Im not the type who like to control, but not knowing whats in his mind makes me feel so insecure. I know for someone with a lot of physical flaw having someone who is almost physically perfect like him loving me, I should feel more greatfull. I also think that because of my flaw, I need to sacrifice more as the "compensation" even I know its not the right thing to do. And again because of my flaw that make me think too much as I feel he got a lot of reason incase he want to leave me..

Dear, I hope all my negative assumptions are all wrong. I give you my faith and trust. The best assumption that I can think right now is you already sleep which is the reason for the unreplied sms. I hope that you never disappoint me..

p/s: I love you
p/s: I hope you do love me too..

Mass review coming soon

2010-01-28T21:33:00.002+08:00

I love reading reviews. So I thot why not creating my own reviews? The only turn off of posting reviews is the lazyness of resizing those pictures and the snail internet speed that I need to go through when uploading photos. Ish. But since Im so damn free, im going to make reviews for the following stuff:

Beauty product:
1. Maybelline Gel lasting drama eyeliner
2. Shahnaz Hussain Kajal eyeliner
3. Mandom Cleaning Express Eye Make up remover
4. GEO lens UCK-105
5. Dr G bb cream (sample)
6. Skinfood Aloe bb cream (sample)
7. Maybelline Cat Eye Mascara
8. Yisixe nose patch

Non-beauty product
1. Ayumi 8cm cds
2. Ayumi Deiji Deiji Diary
3. Pefume Triangle
4. Perfume One Room Disco
5. Ayupans
6. Any Ayu stuff tht I feel like reviewing

and also some random review about....FOOD! Well..who dont love food? Haha
1. Jalapeno cheese dip powder aka KFC cheesy wedges cheese (cheesy wedges lover must read this)
2. Bakkers Cottage.

I know my blog dun have readers but whatever. Who ever want to read it? Stay tune~

My current wishlist

2010-01-28T21:18:00.002+08:00

All of sudden I keep eyeing all beauty stuff. God, I've neglected my poor body over these years and now, I got a strong urge to become a beautiful lady. Everytime I window shopping in LYN, I keep staring those thread with skincare, bodycare and make up key word. Ahh..whats happening to me ?? Am I turning to make up girl?

Anyway, here is my wishlist/buying list:
1. Barbie Super Nudy Lens
2. Balo Chilli slimming gel
3. Sunglasses
4. Blackhead mask
5. MAC Dainty mineralize blusher (cant afford now)
6. BB cream (still finding what brand suit me)
7. Any lengthening mascara. (Maybelline cat eye suck)
8. Optifree lens solution (the bottle Im having going to say goodbye to me soon)
9. Hair straightener
10. any Ayumi stuff

see?? 9 out of 10 are beauty product. Omg, safe my wallet please T_T

I hate when..

2010-01-22T21:26:00.002+08:00

Suddenly feel like writing this. I hate when people:
1. Lie to me.
2. Ignoring my question.
3. Replying me with ONLY "o" or "k" or wadever single word after I gave a wall of word of msg to
him/her.
4. Keep pushing me do something that I dun wan.
5. Only come to me, talk to me when he/she need help, but after got wad they want, they just Hi and bye in the next chat.
6. asking too much from me even you only a stranger.
7. talk big and show off (like that bustard)
8. act smart but actually dumb.
9. love to lend my ear a lot but so stingy when its time for them to lend me their ear.
10. taking advantage from me after knowing my personality.

p/s: I write this as general, not to any specific people, tqvm.

Bald? (Part 2)

2010-01-09T20:03:00.003+08:00

In some of my previous post, I was complaining about my hairfall problem. I had tried out numerous brand of shampoo on market including Pantene, Rejoice, Head n Shoulders, Clear, Dove, Sunsilk and the latest, Asience. Other than treating my dandruff problem, I found out it brings me no result in my hairfall problem or even repair my hair follicle. After seeing more hair on the floor each day, I know I really must try out of something. So after some research (which I hope the source are all true), I decided to splurge more on my hair product.

I'm having dandruff problem and most dandruff shampoo do contributing to the hairfall, which is really a big problem to me. After seeing a lot of reviews and opinions, I decided to get Nizoral shampoo to combat my dandruff problem.

If you trying to find this in supermarket, you wont find it. This is actually a controlled drug, and you can only buy it at pharmacy like Guardian, at the counter! I bought mine at Guardian, and it cost me RM30 for big bottle (100ml) It contain 2% of Ketoconazole, and can only be used for maximum of twice per week. I used it once every 4 days, and so far I only used it twice so its too early to comment about the real result. But so far Im liking this shampoo. My scalp feel so clean after use it and it give my hair a good hairday feel each time after usage as it make my hair goes fluffy and puffy.

Since I only can use it like twice a week, that means I need another shampoo for my daily use. From reviews, I found out that organic shampoo formulated with biotin might be good for thinning hair. There are numerous of brand and this brand seems one of the best selling, so I decided to give it a try. It is Avalon Organics Biotin B-complex shampoo and conditioner.
Another suggested product is actually taking biotin supplement with high dosage to promote hair growth since this vitamin is good for hair, scalp and nails. Bad news, both product are hardly to be found in Malaysia. Yes, there is biotin supplement sold around locally but only in low dosage. However, thanks to LYN forum, I found there is a forummer who brings these product from USA and sell it to the other forumers including me.

The big package arrived.

Yay~ the product that I hoping to be my hair savior.

The shampoo contain some ingredients to combat hairfall like saw palmetto, biotin and wheat protein. Some early review after 1st time using the shampoo, it work like most shampoo. Im glad it doesnt make my hair feel too dry or greasy like some shampoo. My only complain is the smell. Most people in drugstore.com described this unpleasant smell as grass smell..something like that. But for me, the accurate description about the smell is, it smell like most of our local oinment, or widely reffered as "minyak angin". Yea.. it really bug me at 1st but Im glad the smell go away as my hair no longer wet after shower..phew.. Oh ya, and the price for the shampoo is RM32, and same with the conditioner.

For biotin, its too early to give any review for its result, but some facts, 1 bottle cost me RM38 and it consist of 120 capsules. 1 capsule per day so it equivalent for 4 month of usage and it contain 5mg of Biotin which is pretty high. It is advice to drink plenty of water since it is water soluble.

An update after my 1st time of taking it. I saw a video about biotin by someone who always make a review about make up. According to the video, the biotin caused her to get cystic acne around her chin! It was supported by some viewers but not all..but still many. What freaked me off, the brand is exactly same as mine. So I did some online research and some people experiencing same problem when taking biotin. Ah... I really hope Im not in this group of people or else I need to choose between my face or my hair T_T

Tats all about my hair thingy, will update if got any positive or (hopefully not) negative result.

You were.../BALLAD single by Ayumi Hamasaki

2010-01-09T19:22:00.005+08:00

Finally after around 2 weeks of waiting, my cd is here! Again I picked it up at post office instead of they sending it to me. Bad pos Malaysia service..booo

I pre-ordered this at CDJapan at a cheap price since Im using my CDJ points, and again I managed to get 1st press copy. This time I decided to buy just the cd-only version instead of cd+dvd like what I always did before. The reason is because I can always have the video clip in the dvd in her coming album soon, and secondly is because Im simply short of money >.<.

So now is picture time (yay~)

The parcel from CDJ (my bro actually opened it already)

Wow, a bunch of "protector"

Neatly bubble-wrapped in box with rolled poster

Took off the wrapped, yay no scratch wadsoever

The external bonus: a B3 sized poster

1st press came with alternate cover (the blue one)

I really love love the cover..^_^

The cd consist of 8 tracks which are:
1. You were...
2. BALLAD
3. RED LINE ~for TA~
4. You were... (orgel version)
5. Sunset ~LOVE is ALL~ (orchestra version)
6. You were.. (instrumental)
7. BALLAD (instrumental)
8. RED LINE ~for TA~

Overall, I like this single but not so much. You were.. was nice and I love BALLAD. However I cant find myself to like RED LINE. As for the 2 bonus tracks, Sunset.. it just ok for me. I dont like the original version of this so same goes to the orchestra version, and for You were... orgel, its nice, but I prefer if it is an instrumental orgel instead of orgel with singing voice. Well..its not a great great single but it is certainly better then her previous one which is Sunrise/Sunset ~LOVE is ALL~ which I found it horrible in many aspects. I even sold my copy to other people for that single +_+

So I guess I need to get ready for Ayumi new album as she already came out for 5 new songs after her last album and by that time, there goes my money again...

Happy 63rd Birthday!!

2010-01-06T23:40:00.006+08:00

Happy 63rd Birthday Papa!! We love you!!

The cake kinda small so we just placed 3 candles

Its a Black Forest Cake. Yummy.

On nom nom nom

Kajang Bus Stop

2010-01-05T01:42:00.004+08:00

Today after I done with my stuff somewhere else around Jalan Reko Kajang, it was around 3.30pm something, still a long way before my father office hour end. (His office is in the same area too). Knowing there was someone that I dun wish to bump into that office, I decided to wait outside. I lingered around the 1st floor of the bus station, and grab 1 pack of Limited Edition Milo. lol. Then I continue walking around. It was nothing that interest me actually. It noisy with the bus engine sound and the air..ah, smokey~~ I walked till I reached the end of the floor, and I saw a small restaurant. There are some striking green color paper pasted on the wall wrote with their special menu. I read it and it say something like "Nasi Goreng Telur Teletak" , Nasi wadever wadever pun teletak", "bla bla bla teletak". Wad the hell with the teletak teletak thing? o.O''

Ok, everything was bored, so I decided to just sit while waiting for my father. My butt is sitting but eyes was still lingering watching people. Suddenly an Indo girl said to me "Kakak mahu pergi mana?" I dont know how old is she, but since she called me kakak..oh well.. I replied her saying that Im heading to Serdang and I was waiting for my dad. Then she started talking about herself, like where she going, she came from where, her brother job bla bla bla, and I just listening while not talking too much >.< (Im not in the mood to talk~~)

Not long after that she leaving to surau cos she wan rest. My eyes continue lingering. Suddenly it stop at a photo shop booth, there are 3 young gals inside and 2 of them are fighting! Slapping and scratching and shouting, before the 3rd girl confronted them. I was like, wow? After that they seems like make up each other and everything goes back to normal. lol

Shortly, the indo girl come back, saying that the surau is full. She back to her seat and started to snooze off. Ohya, forgot to mention that her bus schedule is at 10pm, long hours more to go.

Finally I got sms from my dad asking me to go to the car at parking lot. Yay~ finally Im out from this weird place..relief~~

A bad dream

2010-01-04T08:03:00.002+08:00

Last night I had a very bad dream, and it just scary when everything seemed so clear. The background is in a classroom, UiTM classroom I mean. An unknown lecturer was checking the student's homework, and Im being one of students who doesnnt make it done. The lecturer than said if one person undone, she wont evaluate all students. lol. But thats not actually the main reason why I said this is a bad dream. >.<

So here's the bad story goes. Suddenly a girl came out of nowhere walk fast to a male student and slapped him hard. The girl take a few deep breath and she looked so angry, and I can see tears flew from the edge of her eye. She then shouted to the boy about something that he done to her which make her feel disappointed. The lecturer who felt her class was being disturbed by the slapping incident mumbling something about that girl, and the girl heard it.

The girl walked slowly to the lecturer with angry face and slapped her! The lecturer become angry and want to slap her back but the girl block her hand from doing so. She then say something loudly to the lecturer. After that she ran to the main switch box and trying to took off the power supply wire. Everyone were watching her but never act to stop her. Aware that she going to do something with the wire, I ran from the classroom to avoid any unwanted shock from the wire >.< The girl managed to snatch out the wire from it place and shout something. She then walk toward the classroom exit where I was nearby outside. She touched the wire to her chest and her body was shaking hard before she finally collapsed. It was a suicide. After her body was removed, the class continue as usual but at other room. Im not going to elaborate more further cos everything seems vague after this.

So that is about my last nite's bad dream. What scares me more is I actually know the girl. She is not my friend but I know she is the only child in her family. It was a great relief when I woke up this morning to find out it was only a dream. Phew.. Well..maybe some people saying suicide isnt a big deal and it might be the easiest way to end a misery. But in muslim, suicide will make bad things become worst, become whoever who make a suicide, he or she will be thrown to the hell and stay there FOREVER as a punishment for not appreciating life that was given by God.

So..yeah. Thats all folks. Really really thankful it just a dream cos I dun wish to watch a real suicide infront of my eyes. T_T

My 2009 Top 3 MSN-er Award o_o!

2009-12-30T22:08:00.003+08:00

I spent quite some of my online time at MSN. Honestly, I don really have alot of friend in my MSN friend-list since most of my college mate tends to use YM rather than msn. Out from 85 people, I only chat actively with less than 10 people T_T

So here is my top 3 MSN chatter for every month thorough 2009 (yeah.. I never delete my chat logs -_-)

January
1. JC
2. YX aka kiddo ("jk")
3. Cocobi aka my sis -.-

February
1. Jimmy aka ultima
2. JC
3. Lec

March
1. Jimmy
2. JC
3. Cocobi

April
1. JC
2. Jimmy
3. Kiddo

May
1. JC
2. Lec
3. Nanako (she going to conquer soon)

June
1. Jimmy
2. Nanako
3. JC

July
1. JC
2. Nanako
3. Cocobi

August
1. JC
2. Nanako
3. Cocobi

September
1. JC
2. Nanako
3. Cocobi

October
1. JC
2. Nanako
3. Cocobi

November
1. Nanako
2. JC
3. Cocobi

December
1. Nanako
2. JC
3. Cocobi

So its clearly that my overall top 3 for 2009 are~~~
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Dear dear, Nanako and Cocobi
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thats all! see you on My 2010 Top 3 MSN Award. lol

What should I do?

2009-12-24T19:10:00.002+08:00

After I lost my battle, now I need to rise back. But I dunno where should I start? My main concern now is money, so yeah.. I need a job first before I can get into next intake. I wish my dad could help me but now he's busying trying to place my bro and my sis into a good school, and leaving me in the dark. The darkness that actually was started by him, because he the one who responsible in directing what thing should i take so i can be a doctor (which will never happen) but end up I became a failure product which only hold a microbiology diploma. I know he just want for the best, and it is my fault also for not trying to the max. I wonder what will happen if I just proceed with the things that I like few years ago. Instead of become a science student, I actually love something that relates with in-decor designing, indoor designing or whatever it is because I just love to see those pretty indoor decoration or pretty things. Oh well..everyone does but I do believe that I have some sort of talent in judging what thing is pretty, stylish etc and wad is not. Yeah you can laugh at me.. But being told by friends or others about my good taste or choice in various stuff isnt a first or second time, but indeed is many many times. And whenever I go to any place with some nice decor style i will keep saying my opinion, like what colors should they put or what type of furniture wadsoever, cos I just love it and it somehow make me a little bit spirited. But despite of that I still have a messy room -.- Oh..but there is still a reason why it is messy. First, Im sharing room with my sis, second, this room is too small for 2 young girls like us, and third all the furniture werent choosen by ME, so I got no heart to decor it plus with those overload stuff bursting everywhere. Yeah..I just dont like to work with somthing that I dont like!

Ok, I went far from the topic already. So what should I do now? Find a job, grab some money, see if I manage to get into the next intake, or if i failed, I'll just continue to work gaining experience with my small diploma, hoping with it I can still be a someone like Lim Goh Tong. Is that possible?

Bald?

2009-12-24T19:05:00.002+08:00

recently see my hair is everywhere on the floor. it really freak me off. I dont wan to become bald yet..No, I dun wan to become bald at anytime! Ah.. I should stop using the Head and Shoulder shampoo. Realized that my hair fall become worst after I finished my Dove shampoo and use the H n S. Hmm..wonder what shampoo should i splurge on now.
Any idea?

Backing off..

2009-12-16T13:34:00.003+08:00

This month is such a sucky month. I got my 1st semester result and its really bad, so I decided to step off. At first I do feel very sad, yeah..loosing to frens, lost my chance to get loan, wasted my 1 semester time, but now I think it might be a good thing. Well its better lost it now when it still in early stage rather than fall down when you already climbing half route of ladder which will certainly cause more injure. Taking a physic major for your BSc when you are from a biology major course in diploma which was only having pre-calculus and basic statistic as its only calculation subject, is not easy, especially for people like me who not adoring the "magic" of calculations.

So yeah.. Maybe I lost the RM3k loan per 6 month, but maybe later I will earn more than RM3k per month. Maybe I look such a loser to my friend now, but who knows I still can win in the future. Maybe I lost 1 year of time due to my decision but its better than continue something that you dont like for years till eventually you get old and regret it thorough your entire life.

So, goodbye BSc (Hons) Material Technology. You not for me neither Im for you. For some people maybe you can laugh at me, but remember the sky isnt always bright. And thanks for people who supporting me during my glooomy day. You know who are you =)

If I could turn back time..

2009-12-02T01:09:00.002+08:00

I will..
1. Ask my parent not to make me used to eating fast food at home for dinner since I was in primary school, so I wont be as fat as I am now.
2. Not to read Enid Blyton books in the dark before sleep when I was in primary which had caused me to wear spectacles at such an early age of 8.
3. Mix more with friends so Im not having a dificulties to socialize like Im having now.
4. Not ignoring some of my friends when I was in school. I lost some of my "ex-bestfriends"
5. Not spend quite some of my money on voting Vick Malaysian Idol. (LOL)
6. Study harder for my SPM.
7. Put a cover on my 1st hamster's container instead of leaving it open air. He was MIA when I was on 5 day trip to Cameron Highland.
8. Never start playing online game after SPM.
9. Stop my parent from get into trap of a "jurujual langsung" (We lost a lot)
10. Brushed up my english especially speaking skill.
11. Never get addicted to Maple Story
12. Never know this person from the game, he took a lot of my precious time as well as some money for "a cash" (I was stupid)
12. Study harder for my diploma.
13. Never spend all my money recklessly on music stuff
14. Never include "Material Technology" among my degree choosing course list.
15. Never need to wrote this list.

Drama Review: Zettai Kareshi (Spoilers alert!!)

2009-11-16T00:30:00.003+08:00

I got this j-dorama from my friend, she really have a lot of japan drama >.<

Before I continue, this review might contain spoilers so any anti spoiler you can just not read it.

This drama consist of 11 episode and is adapted from manga "Zettai Kareshi" or in english, Absolute Boyfriend. People reviewed that the manga version and drama version is way too different in their story line, but I watch the drama 1st before read the manga and I found out the drama is quite good even different from the original story line ^^

So here's some review. This drama is about a young woman, Rikko who always got rejected by boys since she was in school. She was always descri One day she met a scientist named Namikiri by co-incidence and he said he will change her love life. The scientist brought Rikko to a company named Kronos Heaven and gave her to answer a set of question about an ideal boyfriend. Rikko without thinking further just answered the questions thinking that it just some sort of normal survey. After that she just left the company.

By the next day, a huge parcel came to her house. And when she opened it her "ideal boyfriend" is inside!! Its a human look-alike robot >.< Since that, Rikko's life changed, living with robot who always said "I love you" all the time, cleaning the house, cook for her, doing house chores but sleep in toilet everyday. Rikko even named the robot as Tenjo Night, a knight who always protecting her.

Rikko treated Night more to "house appliance" since it just a robot. Meanwhile Night, being a first series of love robot encountered several error while on his way protecting Rikko and the error somehow caused Night to developed real human feelings instead of just a programmed robot. And its slowly has captured Rikko's heart. But at the same time, Rikko's boss, Soushi also has a feeling towards her, which put Rikko in dilemma position.

Rikko who really fond of man's love started to fall in love with her boss due to that they always spent time together working on new sweet (they work in sweet company). Night aware of that, but still try his best to accommodate Rikko and give all his love as an ideal boyfriend. One day, Night saved Rikko from being hit by a car and "injured" him self badly, which caused him for a major repair. Since that Rikko caught her eye on Night while at the same time hold her feeling towards his boss.

After Night was repaired, Rikko start to treat him better which make Night feel very happy. However day by day Night keep encounter function error since his major repairment. At the same time Soushi confessed his feeling to Rikko and Rikko said she have the same felling too.
And also at the same time, both of them were offered for sweet making training in Paris for 3 years, and planned to go together. But going to Paris with Soushi means she must left Night alone in Japan.

Night who knows about the plan willing to let Rikko go to Paris for the sake of her dream to become patstisizer. Rikko are pleased with Night willingness to let her go to Paris. At the same time Kronos Heaven plan to disposed Night since they considere it as a faulty product for having a human feelings. They came to collect Night on the day Rikko going to depart to Paris and said it just for a maintainnance. Rikko who never suspect of anything just let the company took Night for the "repair". However, Namikiri who was eventually being suspended for being protective to his robot night, managed to escape and called Rikko about the real situation. Rikko ran quickly to the Kronos Heaven and told Soushi she cant leave Night. She managed to save Night from being terminated.

Rikko finally realized how Night is important to her, and decided to live her life together with Night. However, Night chip system become weaker due to a lot of battle that he already going through and eventually he was going to die. Knowing of his fate, Night wrote a letter to Soushi to take care of his girlfriend when he gone. During his last period of life time, Night spent his time with Rikko by dating, and having party with their collegue. Rikko even gave Night a knitted mufler on the last day they were together. During the final night when Rikko was sleeping, Night kissed Rikko for a last time, leave the house and find his inventor, Namikiri. Night finally ceased functionning infront of Namikiri and the last word he said was "Rikko" while looking at the knitted mufler.

The next day, Rikko woke up and finding Night is not around. Namikiri came to her house explained what happened to Night, which burst Rikko into tears. Namikiri then handed the main chip of Night which contain last message from Night, telling her do not cry and live happy achieving her dream. He will watch from above. Following the last message from Night, Rikko followed Soushi to Paris in order to achieve her dream.

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Isnt the story sweet, even it has a really sad ending T_T

How I wish I have a zettai kareshi who always protect me, say sweet things to me and at the same time really mean it, always try his best to make me happy, never hurt me, and accept me for who I am.

Kya~ (o>.

Happy Birthday to.......ME!!

2009-10-01T16:20:00.006+08:00

Its my birthday~ and starting from today Im 22 years old T_T. Omg I feel like Im getting old. T_T.. Most people usually will feel very happy when there comes their birthday for some reasons. For me, my birthday means Im getting old by 1 year, but the actual things that make me happy is to see how many birthday wish that I will get and of course ...present!!(well..if any)

So I would like to thank to these lovely people who wished me a happy birthday ~!

(from the 1st to the next after that)

Kismet (she never failed to wish me a happy birthday, again this year she is the 1st ^_^)
Kelvin (you save it in ur hp izzit? =P)
Jaycee (<3 I wish you can sing a birthday song for me ~)
Mum (the one who gave birth)
Dad (the one who responsibble =x)
Dom (unexpected >.<)
Siti Hajar ( Luv her so much ^_^ I miss the old time when we were a classmate)
Nanako ( thanks to facebook, jk =P)
Jun (thanks~)

hope the list will keep go on and on >.<

Siti said she wan to belanja me makan this weekend (yay~~) and someone from the list (who? secret..secret.. =p) said want to give me something. Im so happy !! ^o^

Anyways, I hope I will become a better person after this. Better and always better =)

What have I did this Raya?

2009-09-27T19:25:00.002+08:00

My Raya holiday going to end in less than 24 hours sobs..
So in the last 1 week holiday, what the things that I've done?

*shopping (this is a routine, at least once in a month)
*onlining (most of the time)
*studying (not most of the time)
*staying up late everyday (doing what?)
*tidy up my messy room (and it get mess again very fast after that)
*beraya (only at my own house -.-)

Why only at my own house, becos my dad wasnt around till the 4th hari raya, and when he back my mum already got no mood to go anywhere -.-, and that makes this Raya is the most boring raya that I ever had since 22 years. lol. And got 1 more record too, this year I only got 1 "duit raya" which is from my mum.

So now, what awaits me after this holiday end?
* 4 tests
* 1 project submission
* 16 lab report submission
* and of course back to my everyday class day routine, a long walk over hills and lots of
lader to class (cos the damn bus cannot make a stop at my hostel, I dunno I pay transportation
fee for wad =____= )

and being off topic a bit, how was my new banner? ^_^ applelicious?

Mooncakes~ luv them ^0^

2009-08-30T22:29:00.006+08:00

I went to Jusco this evening to buy some groceries, and look what I've bought together, MOONCAKES ^_^ since Jusco now is having mid-autumn festival sale for mooncakes. I love mooncakes~ and besides tht I love those boxes that came together when you bought the cakes~ They are just so attractive and I love collecting the boxes. I bought only four cakes since they are quite expensive. Two of them are "Overseas" (brand name) ""White Lotus Paste with Yolk" and " Golden smthing". Another two are from "???" (chinese word, dunno how to read. lol) and this one the flavours are quite tempting. "Blueberry Blackcurant Cheese" and " Toffee Chocolate Walnut Brownies". Sounds great right?

Took some pictures of them but havent eat the cake yet since it just passed buka puasa time and Im still full ~.~

on the left is unknown brand, on the right is Overseas

The box from unknown brand. So pretty^^

From "Overseas"

Boxes from last years mooncake festival~ Now I got 5 of them. yay~

the end of my Maple Story

2009-08-23T00:34:00.015+08:00

After spending quite sometime into this 2d online game, I think now its a good time to call it a quit for good. Well.. I can say that I already 100% stop playing this for the past few months already.

I started to play this game since 3 years ago after a friend of mine introduced it to me. Just like many other online games, this game is about leveling and skills gained after each level. So after 1 level, we will train train train to gain the "experience point" and then leveled and the process keeps repeat till the player reach lvl200. Sounds boring right? But somehow I got become addicted to this game for quite sometime. Most of players are chinese from Singapore and Malaysia. I can say majority are teenagers (i started playing when i was a teenager too). But I do found some adults like in their 30s or married people who still playing this game.

While I playing this game I have met many sort pf people. Some are nice but many are rude also. This game also is a place where I learned some bad swearing words like kpkb or ccb whatsoever. But of course I never say those to pple lar. I made some online friends through this game and some of them are still befriend with me till now even I no longer play the game. I can say the game is fun if you make many friends and chat together or doing quest together. But some people just like to kill the fun by just training blindly for hours just to reach the stupid lvl200 which will really consume lots lots of your time. Well..people may say this game is about leveling. Keep level and become stronger. But come on.. like, we train for hours then level up, then train again kill the same things then level up again, yay got some skill. Then killll again, to level up again. Meh.. I dun see any type of fun by keep repeating those steps again and again and again. I am once stupid becos I was playing for level becos of following a training freak.

I dun wan to babel more =x Before I end this post, I would like to say thanks to all my Maple friend who guide me and treating me good while on my stay. Some already quited before me but for those who still playing, please play wisely and enjoy your game. I will miss SOME of you =D
I end this post with some screen shots of my character while playing the game. Enjoy.

When I was a newbie

Sweetest person I found in maple. Luv him so much =P I cried when he was banned from the server >.< My friend who responsible in bringing me to the maple world.

My guild master. Quite a nice friend. He is from Indonesia.

Another special friend. Now he the one who taking care of my accounts.

Knew him in msn at 1st, and eventually he is a mapler too. A nice guy.

He was a candy. He was an ice cold. But now he just a plastic.

My sis who play just to kacau me.

I love you

2009-08-12T22:25:00.003+08:00

Just want to say, that, I love you. I dunno since when but..yeah..

I love you.

Forgive and forget?

2009-07-27T17:40:00.002+08:00

I wonder if its already time for me to just forgive and forget. Well..its already for awhile. Bad days past already. Damage has been done and perhaps there is no turning back.
Forgive? yea maybe. Forget?? NEVER! Sorry but if people want me to forget, they must wish me to get amnesia first, or even Alzheimer. (oh please avoid that >.<)

Why I say NEVER? Because I cant. I cant forget all the things that people already done to me, especially bad things. I still remember this girl always take my 20 cent snack pocket money when I was in kindergarden. I still can remember people who stole my new color pencils when I was in standard 2, I still remember people who pinch me with hatred when I was in standard 1. I still remember the people who said to me "Cepat lah jalan, terhegeh-hegeh" when I walk in queue when I was in standard one. I still remember the teacher who suddenly knock my head because she tought me chating while in assembly when I actually did not. I remember this person who is the same person who pinched me, spread to other people about me having my 1st "full moon" when I was in standard 6 and I wonder whats a big deal about that normal thing. So in conclusion is, I cant forget! Even the simplest thing. Ah, I wish I can be like this when it comes to study. lol.

I guess I'll just forgive you. And please forgive me too if I got do anything wrong. Hope I wont hold any grudge towards you anymore while the time always passing by...

Al-Fatihah to my fren's bro

2009-07-27T04:15:00.003+08:00

Today when I was about going to sleep, I took my hp and I saw 1 unread sms. Its from my best friend when I was in diploma. In the sms she told me about her youngest brother had pass away last Friday because of an accident. She even stated in the sms that the incident got appear in Metro and Utusan on Saturday. So I rushed to my computer to search Saturday's Metro and here it is, quote from Harian Metro 25th July:

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KANGAR: “Ketika itu saya menjangka Syamil hanya mengalami luka kecil dan tidak mempedulikan sangat perkhabaran daripada rakannya sehingga seorang jiran memaklumkan kali kedua berhubung kejadian terbabit.

“Apabila keluar ke jalan raya, saya dapati orang ramai sedang mengerumuni tempat kejadian dan melihat seseorang budak terbujur kaku di atas jalan raya sambil ditutupi kain serta mengecam basikal milik arwah tidak jauh dari tempat kemalangan,” kata Hamidah Abdul Rahman, 52, ibu kepada Ahmad Syamil Azmi, 13, yang maut selepas dilanggar sebuah kereta ketika dalam perjalanan ke masjid untuk menunaikan solat Jumaat di sini, semalam.

Pelajar tingkatan satu Sekolah Menengah Kebangsaan Tengku Sulaiman, Beseri itu, ketika kejadian sedang menunggang basikal ke masjid sebelum dilanggar sebuah Nissan Sentra dipandu seorang lelaki kira-kira jam 1.10 tengah hari

Mangsa yang juga anak bongsu daripada lima beradik dari Kampung Paya Senduk, Beseri dilaporkan meninggal dunia di tempat kejadian selepas cedera parah di kepala dan badan

“Saya sudah mengagak kejadian buruk berlaku dan tidak mampu menghampiri tempat kejadian dengan melihat mayat Syamil dari jauh. Bagaimanapun, saya pasti mayat terbabit adalah Syamil selepas mengecam basikal miliknya,” katanya ketika ditemui di Bilik Mayat, Hospital Tuanku Fauziah (HTF) di sini.

Katanya, kali terakhir bertemu Syamil kira-kira sejam sebelum kemalangan iaitu ketika mangsa baru pulang dari sekolah sebelum bersiap untuk pergi menunaikan solat Jumaat.

“Sebelum keluar rumah untuk ke masjid, Syamil sempat memaklumkan hendak pulang lewat kerana hendak menyiapkan kerja sekolah di rumah seorang rakan dan sejam selepas itu, saya dimaklumkan mengenai kemalangan terbabit,” katanya

Sementara itu, bapa mangsa, Azmi Ismail, 54, yang bertugas di Jabatan Perdana Menteri di Putrajaya dilaporkan bergegas pulang ke Perlis kira-kira jam 2 petang untuk menatapi anak bongsunya itu yang dikebumikan di Tanah Perkuburan Kechor di sini, lewat petang semalam.

Sementara itu, Pegawai Penyiasat Trafik daerah Padang Besar, Inspektor Azlizal Khairul Abdul Kadir, berkata kemalangan berlaku di Kilometer 8 Jalan Besar Kangar-Padang Besar ketika mangsa sedang berbasikal untuk ke masjid.

Katanya, Ahmad Syamil dikatakan dirempuh dan diseret beberapa meter oleh kereta terbabit yang dalam perjalanan dari Padang Besar ke Kangar dan disahkan meninggal dunia di tempat kejadian.
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Lets give Al-Fatihah for him. Rest in peace and may his soul are always with Allah.

NEXT LEVEL USB thumb drive

2009-07-04T22:56:00.005+08:00

Today, I've posted about my emo emo, campus and now I want to post about my J-Pop stuff~
Haha, dunno why I feel like want to write a lot these days.

Tada~ the prettiest thumb drive on earth. lol

It's actually the latest album of Ayumi Hamasaki, NEXT LEVEL, but in thumb drive version.
Cool? haha. Size capacity: 2G with only 1.3G of free space (while the rest capacity were used for the album songs and PV's of course) Even tho the free space provided is kinda small, but who cares..it just still so pretty. Being made from Japan, it is very well made and it feels very heavy when I hold it in my hand. Thot of bring it for use when Im in campus, but thinking it might be lost or stolen or scratched wadsoever, I decided to keep this little baby safely on my shelve for the time being (>.<)v

I like it so much so here's more photo of this cute metal shiny thing

Today I see something..

2009-07-04T20:19:00.002+08:00

..which I dont know how should I feel about it. Should I feel sad? Should I feel angry? Should I feel upset? should I feel JEALOUS? or should I just feel neutral about it. But one thing that I sure is I cannot feel happy for the thing that I see. And also I can feel the scar is aching. Maybe I still havent recover to the fullest.

well..I guess nothing I can do other than just let it be..

I am sleepy....

2009-07-02T00:09:00.002+08:00

...when I write this post. But I feel I need to say something, or else I might end up of keep thinking and think and think and that might disturb my dream for tonight (>.<)
Today is already Thursday..left two days before my registration day for my degree. I feel so nervous, well ..since it has been awhile since I left my world of study. But at the same time I feel happy too, mainly is because I got a chance to create a better me, and partially is because it will help me to forget my recent problem.

Yea, my recent problem which is about relationship which is not really a 'real' relationship. Few weeks ago I decided to 'let go' someone's hand which I already hold for 2 years. I actually dont want too, but I think I got no choice, because if I still holding on, my heart might be continuously smash up. Even the person ask me not to do so at 1st.. but for me there is no point to continue because it will only invite more tears.

At the beginning I was really sad, as I lost 3 things at the same time. I lost a place to lean my heart. a person who I always spent my time and share my hobby with and also I feel like I lost a friend. But now Im fine with the 2 lost, as my heart can learn how to stand by it self. I also not really fond into the hobby that I used to do with tht person before. But I feel a bit sad for the part that I lost a friend.

Today, someone who I can say the main cause of the things that happened give suggestion whether 3 of us can do what we always do, but this time together ie 3 of us become friends. Well...I just say to her maybe can. But in my heart I wonder whether I really can face it or not.
Seeing a person who we used to stick together but now stick with another person is not really a good scene right? I dunno..maybe it will make me feel that I actually not lost the person completely and it will make me stop holding grudge on anyone, but..ugh I really dont know what should I feel about this.

Maybe, like most of people out there always said, I should just let time heal it all..

Goodbye 7 eleven

2009-06-29T23:42:00.002+08:00

Yesterday, I finally quit my job at 7-e. Reason? Obviously is because Im going to further my study soon. To be honest, I actually feel more happy to quit, since I dont really fond into that job
..so yeah.. When I think again, I dunno how the hell I can hold on working till six months in such place (+_+)

Well.. in the six months period, not all the way are bad memories. I actually got some useful stuff while working there..aside from money of course. Firstly, I can feel that my self-confidence has gained a bit. People who used to know me, sure knew that I am a very passive and quiet person. Hardly to talk especially to strangers, seldom talk a lot . But the job needs me to comunicate a lot especially to customers, so somehow I learned how to deal and communicate with strangers by that. Well, still not perfect but better than before..hopefully.

And also, because of this job, I finally got new friends from my area where I live. I actually grew up in a small town named Kuala Kubu Bharu (some of you knew that) till I moved to Seri Kembangan after my SPM, leaving all my friends that I have throught my school days. After that, I study in UiTM and none of my classmates are from Seri Kembangan. So basically I dont have any friends when I back to my house. After I got the job at 7-e, I finally got friends..! after almost 4 years living in this place, lol. So..here they are, Nadhira, a girl who really love to laugh, I mean A LOT. Quite friendly, and also a type of person who is very straight forward, lol. Siah, she is older than me but looks younger than me (*_*) and sometimes I love to hear her talk because of her Sabahan accent, haha. Fairuz who same as my age. Well, she is nice but I seldom got same shift with her..so =x. Hajar, same age as well. She is a new staff so I dun get to know her much, but still friends (^_^). Pian, quite helpful, friendly, even sometimes quiet. and *whisper* I actually like his voice because it sounds quite manly (>.<) keep it as a secret ya~ hahaha. Fizul, well..we didnt talk much but sometimes when he talks to others, he can be quite funny actually. Qimi, new staff, I can say he is friendly. Talking about him will always reminds me of ciggarate, lol. And, ohya..he actually owe me somthing but I guess he forgot about it, so nvm about that. And also others who already quited or being transfered etc etc. I consider you all as my friend as well. haha.

I think thats all that I want to write. I hope I wont be back to work in 7-e again, hahaha. But whatever it is, it will become 1 of my chapter of my life story, since it actually was my very 1st experience as... a real worker.

Sometimes..

2009-05-14T02:08:00.004+08:00

Sometimes you make me smile..
Sometimes you make me sad..
Sometimes you make me laugh..
Sometimes you make me cry..
Sometimes you make me sweet..
Sometimes you make me down..
Sometimes I feel that you are for real..
But sometimes I feel you are just a fake plastic..
Sometimes I wish you to stay far away from me.
But I end up missing you after that..
Sometimes I hate you so much..
But.. sometimes I want to say that I love you..
My sweet candy and ice cold..

lol what the crap am I wrote here (*_*)

Bored..

2009-05-13T01:05:00.002+08:00

Hello! (^_^)
It has been awhile since I update smth in my blog, especially regarding my life.
Well..since Im not so happy with my life right now..so Im not likely to share it much with people here. Haha.

currently thinking what I should do for tomorrow, since its my offday ^^
hmm..1st thing I want to do is rang the post office. Because they have kept my parcels for weeks!! God.. Im suffering waiting here and whenever I called them they keep saying they will send it to my house but after 2 weeks, still nothing. Maybe I should let my dad to rang them up, since my dad is very PRO in complaining while Im a bit a soft type of person?? LOL

after that, should I go out? feel like goin out but going out means my cash will out from my wallet as well. ouch. Ah..I guess I will go out awhile. And anyway I got some cool coupons from Big Apple and 1 of them is get SIX donuts for free when you buy 1 dozen of donut!! weeee~~
it will expire at the end of the month so I must hurry use it!!\ (>.<)/

but..if I dun go out, maybe I will just spend my offday at home doin wadever home stuff. (+_+)

ok i think thats all for now. Thanks for reading my craps.

ciao~

NEXT LEVEL album is here!

2009-04-10T10:13:00.004+08:00

Got this latest album of Ayumi Hamasaki from cdJapan. Too bad I didnt won anthing from the lucky draw but Im still happy that I got my copy ^^

Mine is a 1st Press Jacket B cd+dvd Japan version. There are 4 versions in total which are:

Jacket A 2cd+dvd version (1st press came with pink case)
Jacket B cd+dvd version (1st press came with blue case)
Jacket C cd only version (1st press came with green case)
Jacket D usb-flash version (1st press came with yellow case)

well..I didnt get the jacket A bcos the 2nd cd is actually the audio version of her Premium Countdown Live 08-09 concert and I kinda not interested to just listening to a live performance instead of wathcing and listening =x

anyway, here is the track listing for this album:

1.	[CD] Bridge to the sky
2.	[CD] NEXT LEVEL
3.	[CD] Disco-munication
4.	[CD] EnergizE
5.	[CD] Sparkle
6.	[CD] rollin'
7.	[CD] GREEN
8.	[CD] Load of the SHUGYO
9.	[CD] identity
10.	[CD] Rule
11.	[CD] LOVE 'n' HATE
12.	[CD] Pieces of SEVEN
13.	[CD] Days
14.	[CD] Curtain call
15.	[DVD] Days (video clip)
16.	[DVD] GREEN (video clip)
17.	[DVD] Rule (video clip)
18.	[DVD] Sparkle (video clip)
19.	[DVD] NEXT LEVEL (video clip)
20.	[DVD] Curtain call (video clip)
21.	[DVD] Days (video clip)
22.	[DVD] GREEN (making clip)
23.	[DVD] Rule (making clip)
24.	[DVD] Sparkle (making clip)
25.	[DVD] NEXT LEVEL (making clip)
26.	[DVD] Curtain call (making clip)

end of NEXT LEVEL post++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

Just include together with this post is some pic of other stuff which I got from ebay and from AHS forumers recently. Maybe people will say I spent too much on these but actually I got them at very cheap price, like some are less than RM10 for 1 original japan version cd.

Free & Easy single (1st press edition with Ayu face on cd)

from left top to right bottom: Dearest (single), No Way To Say (single), SURREAL (single), I am.. (album, I got the 1st press version with long obi) and Duty (album)

My SURREAL and Duty has cracked on both cases, but since they are used cd..so I guess I just need to get over it. Other 3 are in excellent condition.

Blue Bird (Jacket A)

used cd. Among the reason y i bought this is bcos I love the cover a lot <3

Mirrocle World (Depend on You) and uraayu photobook.

Got these from 1 of AHS forummers. Used but like new!

Crappy Service PosMalaysia

2009-03-23T22:31:00.004+08:00

I dunno about other people but I had several bad experience with this PosMalaysia. Among of them is a huuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuugee delay of delivery. To date, I've went to Kaunter Serahan PosMalaysia Seri Kembangan twice for finding my lost parcel which they didnt delivered to me without notifying me anything like giving a collection notice or wad so ever.

The 1st time I went there was on 10/03/09 to search for my long awaited GREEN/Days cd which never came to my mail box after almost 2 months after it already been shipped from Japan. At that moment, I was waiting for my Rule/Sparkle cd as well but since it just only been shipped like 2 weeks ago (from the date I went to the post office), so Im not so hoping to get that yet.

So, I went to the staff there, asked whether thay got hold any parcel from Japan to my home address. He took my address, and went to search for it. Few minutes later, they came back, with 2 parcels on hand! My Rule/Sparkle had arrived also! They found my GREEN/Days also (with small bending mark at the boxes which explained about my damaged poster on the previous post).

"Why you didnt send them to my house?" I asked.

"We just got them in hand last week" they replied.

HELLOOO! both items are shipped on different date and the day gap between the two dates are kinda huge. So how come both can arrived at same date ah?! See my item details here and you can compare the date :

I collected my parcels on 10th March 2009 . Take note that I just went there to check beacuse I didnt get any notification notis card to collect my parcel for both items.

1st item: GREEN/Days cd
Origin of shipping : cdJapan, Japan
Date item was shipped out : 19/01/09
Date item was released by Malaysia Custom, KLIA : 28/01/09
Gap between the date item was shipped out and the date I collected my parcel:
50 DAYS!
How many days since it already reached Malaysia (from the custom release)
41 DAYS!

2nd item: Rule /Sparkle cd
Origin of shipping : cdJapan, Japan
Date item was shipped out : 23/02/09
Date item was released by Malaysia Custom, KLIA : 01/03/09
Gap between the date item was shipped and the date I collected my parcel:
15 DAYS!
How many days since it already reached Malaysia (from the custom release)
9 DAYS!

See how huge the gap, and they still can say they just got my GREEN/Days last week?? at the same day with my Rule/Sparkle which was shipped much later?? what a big joke.. 15 days is acceptable, but 41 days, is definitely not! Shipped from same place with same shipping method, but so big difference in time delivery? Haha.
I doubt if I will got my items incase I didnt go check there that day =.=

And just recently, I went for second time to search for another parcel. This time for US and its already shipped around 3 weeks by the sender. And as expected, they found my parcel, and again the reason,

" We just got the item today". ('today' is 20/03/09 and the item was released by custom on 6th March).

What a lame same reason just to cover up their inefficiency. And when I dig back about my previous "visit" to the pos office, mentioning about those dates wad so ever, the staff start to lost words, and the he said KL post office might cause the delay. lol, now wan blame KL pulak.

Come on, it already happened twice, thats not included my dad experiences which happened at least twice, also for the same issue. And my bro who almost miss his registration day to MRSM, bcause the post office never send the offer letter to our house (yeah, thats right. the letter was received after we went to check at that post office).

Oh well, Im looking forward for few items to reach my house currently, so if it happened again, I guess I'll just need to write a complaint letter regarding this.

GREEN/Days & Rule/Sparkle

2009-03-16T19:12:00.003+08:00

Finally got my copy of Ayumi Hamasaki GREEN/Days and Rule/Sparkle single few days ago. Bought them from cdJapan. I feel so happy but angry and sad as well. I'll tell you why I got mix feeling about this in my next post.

So here are some pictures of my beloved singles. They are just so beautiful ^^ And Im glad I got my desired poster version for Rule/Sparkle Single <3 Both Japan 1st presss cd+dvd version.

1st press version of GREEN/Days came with a long slip case and B2 sized poster

1st press Rule/Sparkle came with cartoon art disc by Akira Toriyama and B3 sized poster

GREEN/Days poster. I dunno where to blame for my folded mark poster. (See the bent mark at the middle left side of the poster)

My Rule/Sparkle poster. Love it!

Happy Birthday Mum!

2009-03-04T03:30:00.002+08:00

Ahh..I feel like I have too many things to write, but my times are too limited >.< till I have to delay for my mum's birthday post, lol.

So.. last 1st March was my mum's 55th birthday. My family celebrate my mum's birthday away from home...without me.... because I was working that day T.T
But nevermind, I still managed to wish my mum a Happy Birthday at 12am (^_^)

So mum, happy birthday to you =D and..yeah, I will still get you a birthday present even its a little bit late. (haiz,,I really have no time to go shopping for the pass 2 months..(T_T)

But, I will still get something nice for you..so no worries :P